Day 3. Everything is great. Getting out for a run & from tomorrow back to work . First weekend clean in a very long time. Wish you all to stay busy & focus on results.
Day 60/365 Well, at the two month mark, I have been noticing some improvements. This is not a complete rundown, just a few odd things that come to mind: Increased mental clarity. Often I feel confident. Some little hairs on my chest that weren't there before are popping up, same with facial hair. The testicles often are larger than the usual (not in a painful way) - a few months ago they were smaller than usual. Feels virile, powerful. In January I started getting back to the gym after a LONG time away; right now averaging just two times a week, seeing improvements. Gradually over the year I plan to increase amount of gym time, without overdoing it. A few aches and pains actually feel good, like being victorious in battle. Really cold showers after working out are especially good. I can't remember the last time I've taken a warm one. They really add to an overall sense of well-being. Sticking to a low carb diet, and throwing in intermittent fasting. Feels really good. Gradually losing fat, energy is high. I try to work out in a fasted state, then after I'm done, I feast. In public, women fairly often stop, turn, smile, and say, "Hi." This is without my paying any special attention to my appearance. Yesterday a woman at a store told me that from a distance down the aisle, I looked incredibly tall - but from up close, while I look a normal height, she said there's something about me, that I "must have royalty in my bloodline." I have a lot of my act to clean up before I would consider myself "relationship material," but it feels good. Definitely beats "invisible man syndrome." The past few years have been really rough for me. I felt like I was caught in a downward spiral. I believe it's possible that I have finally hit bottom, and I'm finally clawing my way back up. Before I check in every day, I take time to try to find something small and meaningful to post. I find the process beneficial, as the search becomes a part of the daily routine to elevate the mind to virtue and things that matter, continually instilling that mindset. It may also give something to others as they're reading through the thread. I would recommend it. Search for things that actually make you feel good, inspire you, make you think, make you dig deeper and look at the truth, not stupid things that titillate your compulsive, sickened libido. Hold yourself to high standards. They will be reflected in your entire being, and they will affect the world. People will take notice The only thing I can say is keep going. Keep believing.
Fell really bad these past 3 weeks. Still better than my past with PMO but nowhere near what I had planned for the year. However, life is not perfect and what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Back for good this time, God willing. 1/365 days complete.
This is nowhere near the end of the story for you. Things can improve - this is a true statement. You can always tell yourself that because it's always true. Hope is real. Always, always believe that. It takes courage to stand up again and persist. Keep challenging yourself. Self-mastery is a lifetime mission and growth is difficult. Tell yourself you're up for it, no matter what. That statement alone is very empowering. Human beings always need reminders. When change beckons, for some reason we get amnesia. Keep up with the reminders: Hope is real. HOPE. IS. REAL.
Your decisions are the source of practically limitless momentum. Dwell on that rather than on things that pull you in the opposite direction.
