Another 90 Days

I succeeded this challenge nine months ago.
But didn't succeed the addiction; I'll have to go another ninety days to hopefully seal it.
Day one was stressful and very frustrating..especially at work..
Anger was my primary feeling.

 

Day two was still stressful but I had noticeably much more patience and was not mad.
Its amazing how even after one day you can feel a difference of self-control.

 

Day three was even better and had dealt with more calmness and ease at work; I actually felt hardly stressed.
I had more energy and biked to and from work.

 

Day four was interesting...different feelings of stress tied to lonesomeness and depression.
This is probably tied to me adjusting to no PMO and some rejection from girls.

 

Day five, felt strong on my hike..lots of energy. Confidence and self-esteem was a lot higher today, mainly because I received positive girl attention. Yesterday..was the complete opposite. Interesting how life teases.

 

Day six, felt good overall. Almost like a different person, a strong determined person. However, there is some anxiety at play..the devil inside me wants to fight the good..

 

Day eight, feeling good. Self-esteem is even higher right now and I really don't care about rejection or failure.
I spilled noodles on the floor just now and before I would have started cussing but I handled it with ease.

 

Day ten, I've been having vivid dreams these past couple nights. One about a girl I met seven years ago.. (We're both stoned and eating bags and bags of chips with Kings of Leon playing in the background...)
So far my benefits have been shown as increasing self-esteem and energy.
The urge is starting to come back now, so I believe this is when it actually gets hard.

 

Day 12, I could say I relapsed...since I M..
But to keep my mind set on this goal, I've changed it to watching P. So, I'm still alive and going. Have not watched P in 12 days, and thats progress for an addict.

 

I relapsed today. Went 26 days without porn and relapsed. I M'd 14 days prior. So, I went two weeks after I first M'd until my brain unleashed back to P.
This is a problem. I'm disappointed with myself. I thought I could do the 90 days easy this time around. False.

 

Day 1 is complete.

 

hey, thanks for the feedback. It doesnt look like the app is for iphones yet...so I can't get it.
I'll set a counter on here so we can check back on eachothers progress. Sound good?

 

So I've picked up an interesting challenge last year and to this day I still believe the stages of benefits in the time categories with nofap. It goes like this:
10 days free - Peasant
25 days free - Lord
50 days free - King
100 days free - Emperor
200 days free - Legend
Honestly, I felt changes around each mark when I completed the 90 day challenge. After day 10 you see improvement in your daily habits. After 25! days you start down a different path and its usually the hardest but stay strong to King level and really feel like one once you're there. I never made it to emperor; I was so close. But I believe all the great things about you start to come out after day 10, you just have to get there and stay above it

 

Day 10! Had a great dream last night. Was about a girl I had not met in real life but she was tiny and super hot! She was teasing me but eventually wanted to get it on but we were trapped with her family so we couldn't do it in her house. We then planned on going to my car to ya know and then my alarm went off. I don't why but for some reason the damn alarm always goes off at the wrong time of the dream.
Anyways, 10 days in and vivid dreams are expected.