I have the feeling I might not last any seconds in the real thing. PMO only lasts 2 to 3 seconds before I start regretting. I'm 21, a Muslim, hoping to marry a decent woman one day. I don't wanna fail her too! Most especially I don't wanna be a failure. After I was just about typing about my success in day one. It caught me again and I flout. I'm starting again! Day zero! This time I will be more committed. I'm not gonna put the mistake much in mind cuz I suppose that was the part that really affected my acedemic performance in school. I made a second class upper tho, but I know I'd have made better if it were not the morale that kept reducing every time. I stated PMO in 2016 (penultimate year), and those last two years were the years I had my lowest cgpa (3.6 and below out of 5.0 points). I'll keep coming back and updating. Every update, I'll tell little things about me or my activities. I hope it'd be interesting and the goal would be achieved!
Don't beat yourself introvert. (You might wanna change your name to Extrovert/Passionate/Diligent etc. Surround yourself with positive thoughts, people, feelings. Easier to write, difficult to do? right? Right.) We all feel the same way like you do, that i'm not gonna last today, or maybe this is the hour that i DO IT. Saw that? I DO IT? don't let yourself convince you that this is the hour or the day or it is the time. Or if i resist today, tomorrow i'm definitely gonna do it. See where i'm going with this? it's your brain that's trying to trick you into PMO. Don't pay heed to those thoughts. Still easy to write that last sentence. So, i'm gonna tell you how to evade those thoughts. 1. Keep yourself busy. thoughts won't go away but they sure will mitigate! (then it's upto your willpower to do the reasoning) 2. Don't think about the next day. Focus on today only or maybe this hour if you can't even last a day. One step at a time. don't burden yourself. okay? 3. Find your triggers, which you already have found. Cut them. These are few of the things that you can try. Feel free to ask and share feelings.
