We are here for you! Be proud of each and every accomplishment in your life to date, even small stuff. It's all about reversing the shame cycle, it's not an easy process and it's something I'm learning every day of my life. I went to college for two years and racked up $25,000 in debt. In those two years I just skated by writing papers hours before they were due, stressing out, staying up all night. Finally i was borrowing too much money for the experience/grades I was getting at college so I took two years off. I had to earn quite a bit of money to return. I worked 70 hour weeks starting at 6 am, ending at 12 pm some nights and it was rough. But after 2 years off and a lot of hard work, I'm back. And it is so fucking hard. All the temptations I used to have come back--watching porn, binge watching tv to feel like I have friends, procrastinating, procrastinating, procrastinating. Eating entire packages of Oreos because I'm depressed and lonely and I hate myself when I don't engage myself in school when I worked so hard to be here. I feel sometimes as if I'm throwing it all away. The biggest thing that motivates me and helps me is being PROUD of myself NO MATTER WHAT. Even if I binge watch an entire show and eat a shit ton of food and don't write a paper that's due soon. And that's the only thing that keeps me doing positive things for myself is being proud, not hating myself, not putting myself down, not being shameful, recognizing why I do these things. You jack off for a reason and that reason IS NOT BECAUSE YOURE A BAD PERSON. fuck shame. You are beautiful and you should be proud for waking up in the morning because life is fucking hard. Keep doing you, just be proud of yourself for every little thing. Be proud of those 6 days. Be proud.
Day 4: I was alone at home. It was quiet easy for me to PMO, but i went outside for a walk with my parents. Being lone is really a big big trigger . How are you all doing?
Thank you very much for ur inspiring life. I am not go back to that shit living. I will fight to myself.
Got slightly aroused today and searched up how to deal with it. Came across some questionable links but didn't click on them. 3/14 done!
https://selfdefinition.org/celibacy/Asaram-Bapu-Brahmacharya-The-Secret-of-Eternal-Youth.pdf I really found it great. Read this at your free time.
Currently i am on an educational loan for my graduation. I want to do post-graduation but don't know if i will get another loan without clearing this loan. Everything is a mess. We all must remember that we all have tough situations. We are stressed up. But what good will happen if we PMO. It's just a waste of time, money and energy. We all must consider this 14 days as our last 14 days and fight and win anyhow.
Was in the bus. Had some intense flashbacks and boners due to some women in the bus. It was embarassing. How is everybody doing?
All good dear. Days are running slow these days. I remember, last year April - july, i was completely away of PMO for 3 months Yeah hell yeah I controlled for 90dys. There was an unexplainable energy flowing in my body, i was more focused and sharp in every thing. But one bad day i slipped. Since tht day again, the guilty feeling came over. But i knw i will be back to form soon.
After continuous failing, today is day one .. i hope i achieve this.. i really pray for it.. badly i need it..
Yess..complete this day 1 successfully and you will feel more confidence on your journey. Slowly slowly, 1 day at a time. https://www.google.co.in/amp/s/amp.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/1tejif/the_big_list_of_tips_tricks/