Day 33 without porn and really fighting urge to masturbate this morning and night: seems the more and harder erections I get the the harder is the fight. But I made it! Havea nice day fapstronauts!
Day 11 of 90 Well it was an interesting weekend, my wife went to her lawyer to get the divorce papers, while she was there she was crying so much while talking to the lawyer, he told her he never had someone sit and cry and not be able to talk while getting paperwork drawn up. He told her in his opinion she should try to work things out with me. So she took his advice we are going to make a go at repairing our marriage. As for me, my recovery is going great, no urges, so happy to be free of the dark cloud, looking forward to a new life of having fun with my wife and family. Stay strong, keep moving forward in your path, when things get tuff and you feel like you are going to slide back, find something to do to change your mind set! * 65 days free
Day 4 of 90. I’m having really intense dreams usually involving sex. But I’m also seeing a romantic element of having feelings for real women in the dreams that has been missing from my life for quite a while. I’m taking Benadryl to help me sleep for the first 90 days and I don’t know if that is enhancing these dreams or what. But I’m in a pretty good place right now. I’m excited about the possibility of a future with some authenticity.
Day 26/90. Lots of urges and temptations. Hit the panic button today. It helped. Will focus on work and then watch videos from Reboot Academy.
Day 22 Today I felt a bit ill and demotivated, I was thinking a bit too much. I approached a lot of girls, but often faced rejection. Every time I took action, my state improved and I got better until I talked to a beautiful girl I unexpectedly kissed within 10 minutes. Sometimes NoFap motivates you to do extraordinary things. The lesion I learned is that even if you feel like shit, your day can change very quickly, if you stay strong and continue taking action.