Thanks Alex for what you said. Yes, I think you're right. I'll have a read of the post, and hope you're doing well too!
Day 0/30: Starting again, had a relapse today. After 7 days i had a lot of accumulated sexual energy, adding to the mix some emotional instability and family issues, i couldn't handle it correctly and lost my way. I have to figure out better ways to manage both my emotional state and sexual energy. Good luck to everyone!
Day 7/30. It's tough because the longer I abstain, the more clear it becomes that my mind wants to relapse while my body is passive. When my thoughts go 'there' it makes me feel conflicted and less focused - I tend to feel less sure about why I am doing this, because the same mind that motivates me to keep going seems to plot against me. Still persevering though!
7/30 I went for mass, in the evenings i cut my hair and at night watched soccer. I will recite the rosary and go to bed now.