Good morning gang. Had trouble sleeping last night. Also anxiety was under the surface. But just rode it out. Its hard starting the day today, but I'll just keep busy, keep my mind on the job and get through the day but am doing it this time stay strong guys and gals.
Going on this site everyday is a huge help, hearing other peoples stories and struggles, also the battles they are winning is great. And a much better use of time than breaking my brain in isolation using PMO. So yeah. Today's gunna be a good day. Woo Hoo =o)
I didn't have the time to post because I celebrated New Year in a place with no internet, just got back yesterday night. I promised to talk with a girl I like there if I don’t relapse during this challenge. I didn’t relapse, but couldn’t talk to the girl either. Just because it is not a priority at this moment, but in the last few days I noticed a lack of self confidence in myself , I don’t know the cause of it, but I also have a lot more energy and btw, today I am on the 13/14 days, during this challenge. The next night will start the last day of this challenge. Thank God I am making this progress
Day 14 @2525 Looking ahead to the 21 days challenge Everyday is a blessing Evryday is getting you one step closer to freedom Keep going guys
Day 4. Definitely some urges very early this morning. Woke up because I needed to pee, and couldn't go back to sleep right away. So instead of looking to something I'd regret, I browsed FB for Star Wars fan theories about The Last Jedi. Got bored of that easily enough and fell back asleep. Still have urges now that I'm awake again, but I've got things to do today, so I can't really stop and think about them. That definitely helps.
Oh daaaamn it's the infamous 4th day! If I get this far I usually fail this day. Ain't happening folks. I'm jumping in the cold shower soon (in New England FYI and it's 10 degrees out!). Then I'm working so I should in the clear.