Who else has experienced similar withdrawal symptoms? - Derealisation/Depersonalisation

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by 31shotscrazy, Dec 18, 2017.

  1. 31shotscrazy

    31shotscrazy Fapstronaut

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    So I'm on day 44 and lately I'm having extremely severe scary symptoms

    I look at everyone around me and i feel as if humans look weird, I can't explain it but I have just come to a realisation that everything around me doesn't make sense - lacks meaning or a feeling of being lost. My family seem unfamiliar and it's like whenever I'm speaking to them it's like I'm talking to a sub-species or alien.

    Like I know she is my mum or he is my brother but that is based on mere memory, and whenever i look my mum in the eyes it's like it doesn't make sense.

    Could this be part of the flatline ? (Derealisation/depersonalisation) this is also coupled with depressive symptoms and emotional blunted affect (anhedonia) as well as no motivation.

    Please I need help, has anyone else experiencing things like this. I have no desire to socialise aswell which could be a reason.

    One positive is I have 0 social anxiety anymore.
     
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  2. abraxis

    abraxis New Fapstronaut

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    Sounds like flatline symptoms to me. The general not giving a damn about pretty much anything. I dealt with that for a bit under two weeks but it did pass and things seem to be more "normal" now. I did not experience the "derealization" you mention but I suppose by extension our brains can make anything seem believable. Stay strong and I hope these issues subside for you soon.
     
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  3. 31shotscrazy

    31shotscrazy Fapstronaut

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    Thank you
     
  4. Iampowerful

    Iampowerful Fapstronaut

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    Absolutely I’m going through this at the moment mines been going on about 6/7 months mine was caused by trauma “ a huge panic attack with weed” I’ve luckily educated myself within the past few months and found it’s an awakening. I believe some people struggle to diagnose this dp/dr You can have feelings of like you’re going insane right ? You are not. It’s definitely linked with ego death a wake up call to how evil our planet is. these symptoms are curable so hang in there don’t worry personal development can help you get on the right tracks. Connect with nature more start the the NoFap and go easy on yourself I really have been on here 24 hours and there is some really insightful information and if you just take a look at how many people are in need you can be aware that we are not alone
     
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  5. omeyz

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    Hey bud I went through this rather intensely last year but it's getting much better now as I'm cutting PMO and smoking weed out of my life. All I can say is: don't feed the wolf that is derealization. This means that even when you feel scarily derealized, don't think about it, don't care about it, don't give it any power or mental energy. This only "feeds the wolf". It will pass, trust me on that!
     
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  6. LonerWolf

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    I experience that shit when I PMO.
     
  7. I actually had and still have ( but mild) depersonalization problems.
    But it mostly shines when I focus on it. Its probably because of my.. not so cool life.. Not sure.
     
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  8. Junior987

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    Mayne try starting a mediatation practice. It could help calm the mind. I started using headspace, it walks you thru the mediation and gives me a peace of mind.
     
  9. 31shotscrazy

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    Just an update, the symptoms are getting better everyday but im still feeling depressed.

    This means that it's mostly linked with the flatline and will probably decrease as time goes. Oh well, atleast it's a reminder to never pmo.
     
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  10. mikewritesabit

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    Forgetting people are "real" is one of the reasons I'm doing this. Women especially, including family. I had a therapist ask me if I found women "terrifying" and I was like, no, no of course not thinking it was the whole "scared of commitment" line, but actually I was scared on a way more fundamental level. Who are these people? How do they exist? What do they want from me? Arrgh?

    It's definitely a sign of addiction and recognising it has already been a massive step forward. I'm with you.
     
  11. It is by far the worst symptom in my mind of this addiction and anecdotally got far worse gradually. Zoning out on conversations, couldn’t find the words in my head, couldn’t connect with others and on and on.
     
  12. mikewritesabit

    mikewritesabit Fapstronaut

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    Exactly.. but I'm convinced people are good and kind - and I'm committed to getting back to healthiness. Good luck.
     
  13. talontron

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    you have to connect with people, get out of your house and make friends. Join hobby groups. It is cured by feeling emotion and connecting with people.
     
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  14. mikewritesabit

    mikewritesabit Fapstronaut

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    Happy New Year! People are cool, I know this. I just need to make it heppen:
     
  15. saneagain

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    I have it for one year now. I am also 1 year porn free now I feel like all symptoms I have are related to my porn use.

    Still have wet dreams. Recently i had sex with a pornstar, I havent watched for More than a year, in my dream. I also have insomnia, fatigue, dizziness, visual effects.. It's hell. But Dp/Dr is by far the worst symptoms.

    Feel totally disconnected from the world. Bad memory and no focus. Dont remember my life. No Emotions. Totally indifferent towards my family. I see no point in anything, although I know this not the real me. It's really really scary.
     
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  16. Prashanna

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    Wait, you're experiencing all this BECAUSE you've quit Pmoing? And have been struggling with this for over a year???
     
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  17. 31shotscrazy

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    Guys it's improving day by day
     
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  18. Can also confirm it does get much, much better! Even my anhedonia to tv is diminishing now. Can actually enjoy a movie the whole way through now.
     
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