Relapsed 5 days ago. I had sex with a girl I used to date. Then, the next day I did P and M (Chaser Effect). Since then, I haven't relapse again, its been 5 days. I actually feel good about staying away from PMO for almost two weeks. I haven't done that in so many years. As a result, it gave me confidence and the belief I can cure myself of P and M. I'm motivated by this accomplishment. I felt the positive effects after two weeks. This is worth it guys. Do it. I learned about my urge is not about P, but M, what triggers my urges, the location I have the more urges (my bed). I learned so much. I believe you need short victories, maybe PMO for 90 days it is too much if you want to start your journey. Maybe win a 7 day challenge first, then go for 14, 30, 45, 60, 90. Thank you guys for your support. I will go start another challenge. I'm happy about my progress and I will succeed.
Day 2 checkin! All was well except a few thoughts which i brushed aside promptly! So 90 days is the target and with each baby step it comes closer!
27 DAYS! My people, never thought I would ever make it this far in sobriety again. I literally have been down this road twice before but not to this extreme. In the past I would do these challenges while looking at P-subs, watching the most obscene YouTube videos purposely, purposely edging, etc. So I guess this is the first time attempting 90 days the right way. I'm not just gonna stop at 90 days either. Like @2525 I'm planning on going for a full year, then life with our PM. Can't wait to get there. But first baby steps... COME ON Day 30! 27 down .... 63 to go!
Day 6 Feeling really unsure of myself today. Been operating outside my comfort zone today, and without PMO it's like I've got nowhere to hide. I know that's a good thing because it means I have to face up to things, but it feels like a rough ride right now. But it's always darkest before the dawn, right?