So, I previously posted here a new thread where I said that I finally was managed to stay away from PMO over the weekend. Now however, when the second weekend came: I relapsed. Firstly I just want to say that since I had not been able to survive over the weekend without PMO for a very very long time, I was very happy that I finally did. After that success I saw my struggle with PMO through different kind of glasses. I finally saw hope, that it doesn't have to be that endless cycle of relapsing and never getting victory, but that I have the capacity to overcome my urges and say "no" to them. I didn't notice any "superpowers" after 12 days ofc, but I felt some sort of relief and happiness that I reached that mile stone. How the relapsing happened? Well, this might sound little bit stupid to some, but it started when I wanted to check my browsing history for any P related sites and wanted to delete them. And when you type the site address, the browser suggests different kind of sites where you've been. Well I didn't have "fingerprints" that I would have been on those sites, but the computer knew me and suggested some of those sites for me anyway. So, that being said, I clicked one site and the rest is history. Stupid me. And during when I was in deep in the site, if you will, and watching it and masturbating, I had a thought that I could stop at any time, but then at the same time I felt like it's not the same anymore since I already started even tho I had not reach orgasm. So I just ended up finishing myself. So I have a question to all of you lads relating to that last sentence: Have you had the same kind of experiences? Thank you! Roseisrose
12 days or longer is usually a problem for me. Your addiction neutral pathways start to vibrate around then. Your primitive brain tricks you and before you know it it is too late. Exactly the same thing happened to me yesterday. Don't give up. And don't binge, start your counter again straight away.
