Hi, I am considered an average Joe, though I am not that average. Seems I have a porn and masturbation problem. I haven't really had any good relationships and am nearing 40 with no marriage or kids yet. I see this is a problem! I like to say hi to everyone who struggled and recovered and who are struggling currently. I am one! I hope this will help me not jump to porn or get turned on and start flanking the jumping board into deep waters. I only have struggled with the basics and am not a weirdo or creep or a sicko. I don't think about stupid stuff or have issues with the public. I am not a sex offender too. I struggled with childhood abuse and weird things about my behavior was from terrible parenting, bullying and being a constant weakling, I grew to have issues with myself. I always kept to myself. I would choke the chicken often and that would be my relief, my struggle that was satisfying. I see that is an issues. Wherever I went, that is all I did. That is how I was satisfied. Even though I kept wanting to meet somebody, it would hookups, prostitution, one-night stands and lots of alcohol to feel adequate. I almost got arrested because a prostitute tried to set me up, but she ended up getting arrested and I, free. I cannot tell you how many times this has ruined my chances with people and made it awkward for others. I am not seeing this.
Hi @CleanerUpper I am glad to see you here. Get rid of self destructive habits is a very good idea. I hope you will be able to face and process the pain and suffering from the past. I know that pain will lead us to things that please us to cover that pain. Keeping a journal may help you to write off your chest every day. I wish you good luck on this journey.
