A while ago I relapsed after a 134 days streak of no Porn. I realized it wasn't enough and since I've been trying to do the no PMO challenge to overcome my addiction. However, things aren't going very well. After so many tries and relapses I lost all will and motivation to try again, but neither do I want to relapse again. After a recent relapse I put on a lock on all porn sites I know and threw away the key to remove the program. (deinstalling blocks all internet) It works to some extend, but without the will to stop I just kept banging the walls of the blockade till I found a page that works. When I succeed to overcome my urges it quickly follows with a flood of loneliness and craving for compassion. If that then passes I'm just tired till the urges kick back in. I feel it's a lose-lose at this point, and I don't know how to deal with it. My question is, how do I re spark that willpower? Thanks
I can understand you my friend. I am the same with you. The answer is one. Read and understand the really problems which created from porn and masturbation. If you understand the addition you can find willpower to fight.
I don't necessarily have your answer tonight, seems like you have a decent grasp but have simply relapsed unfortunately. Be kind to yourself, reminding yourself why you chose to go PMO and use that to reset. 134 days is huge! Welcome back aboard the train.
yes i have been in that situation as well. not as a long streak as you. but good for you for going that far. good site to read on is yourbrainonporn website. its on my profile status. please go and watch some videos on it to understand the addiction and why we relapse. important thing is not to feel guilty and shame when we relapse. if you do, that will again lead to another relapse.
你可以试着转移一下注意力，不要老关注这方面的内容，让自己忙碌起来。来自一名中国男孩的建议。 You can try to shift the attention, don't always focus on this aspect of the content, let yourself busy.From a Chinese boy
Well the 134 streak is a very soft streak. Slowly more and more porn like things creeped in, until I relapsed. It wasn't very effective since I only really went without some of my biggest triggers. Now I'm trying to go all the way and abstain from everything sexual till I'm over this mess. I'll do my best not to feel guilty, but it's hard when you keep relapsing for a while. Also I agree staying busy helps, i was away this weekend and I got a 3day streak without issues. Only when I got home all urges came right back to me. Tomorrow I'll try and see if I can force myself through the day without PMO. It's gonna be a massive challenge without any willpower left, but I'll try to make it work somehow. Thanks for all the kind words guys!
