Welp..i did it again. I was on Instagram and scrolled past a picture of a woman with a amazing body but her face was pretty but kinda strong. Which made me go search this transgendered person Instagram page that post all kinds of transgendered people twerking. I' not gonna stress myself anymore or worry about it. I know I love women and women only. Even though I may be attracted to trans women. Plenty of sorts have been open and I've had plenty of opportunities to experience with that and I have no urge to. I just have to treat this like I treat my prostatitis and get through this little episode. And don' get on here saying that I'm trolling or just talking about transgendered people just to be talking like someone tried to accuse me of doing before. I come here when I have a mistake or when I have thoughts So I can vent. I'l post about my addiction and struggle with attraction to trans women all I want if it helps ease my mind and also get good advice from people on here. So I ain't trying to hear no bs about me always talking about this. AND don't get on here saying I just need to be gay. Because if I was gay or wanted to experience with homosexuality I would have been did it. men are NOT on my radar. My problem is men who dress up and get surgery done to look like women and some actually look like real women and my deep attraction and lust for them through porn. Thanks nofap for giving me a place to vent and a place to find myself.
If that's what you like, more power to you. But it sounds like your brain is so hooked on PMO, you are attracted to these transgendered women. I'm just saying
thats ok to relapse. important thing is not to feel ashamed and guilty. by doing that, you are training your mind to do it again. meaning, our mind becomes weaker when it is depressed or ashamed or feeling of guilt. that results in you relapsing 5 days after..so if you relapse...be happy that you were able to go X amount of days without PMO. be happy of that achievement. instead of looking at the bad thing (the relapse) and feeling guilty and ashamed...be happy you did a good streak.
oh。 兄弟不要气馁，成功的路上不是一帆风顺，总结经验，再接再厉，相信你自己。 来自一名中国男孩。 Brother don't get discouraged, the road to success is not plain sailing, sum up experience, make persistent efforts, believe in yourself.—— From a Chinese boy
Good luck. You don't sound dissimilar to me (even down to the prostatitis!) It should get better. I would advise, somewhat contradictorily, that you need to both become ok with what you once did, and develop a resolve that you must not do it anymore. Yeah...exactly as tricky as it sounds. But you have support here.
How long have you had prostatitis bro? I have you thought about suicide as well before from this dreadful condition?
My prostatitis is more of a periodically recurring condition. Its certainly horrible but it sounds like you may have it worse. I've had some serious dealings with anxiety and depression, all documented in my journal (30-35), but I can't say Ive meaningfully thought about suicide. If you have, you should think about professional help (you should maybe think about this anyway).
And then start another, ASAP. Separately, the research has been done, and attraction to transwoman porn is a thing for heterosexual men who use porn. Gays have no use for it.
What he said bro. It's been proven that straight guys watch this shit more than any other demographic. The problem is fucking porn. Transsexual porn is taboo. It gives you a thrill and might even feel wrong, but what you're seeing is a feminine body. They look like fucking women, except they have that extra body part that makes it feel so wrong and taboo. You watch porn, you get used to the "vanilla porn" and it doesn't do much for you, so your brain seeks out a new thrill. Might be rape porn, might be transsexual porn, incest, anything like that. That's why porn is so bad man. It can make you watch things that don't represent your true sexuality, nor do they represent real life. Not to mention it can completely kill your erections and libido. My advice is avoid it like the black plague, because the longer you abstain from porn, the better you'll feel. You'll probably get to the point where transsexual porn doesn't even do anything for you. Just a thought. Stay strong man.
