Beware of the 30 day trap!

Hey there no-one-is-immune. I know it's embarassing. I also am the same as you - I encouraged our fellows here and then after 46 or 47 days into the journey, relapse happened. It feels like we failed our fellows here, which I also felt back then.

Relapses happen to us here and it's a learning experience also. Yes, we might have "failed", technically speaking, but we are not the same person anymore. Compare who you were before and after and you'll notice that you've changed. The degree of change may vary, but the change is there. This is one of the sources of hope and strength for us here.

Allow me to compare it to an exercise routine. I've been practicing yoga 2 weeks into nofap and I've learned some things that are also applicable in this journey. BTW, I follow an online routine and the teacher is really cool. Anyway, he shares that in doing a yoga pose, you have to work it in. You don't just get into a pose and stay still. You have to re-adjust and not be complacent and this is how you get better. The same way applies to our personal journeys. We all start off strong but then we will always reach a point when we become complacent of our accomplishments or when the tension gets too strong that we break. We have to make the necessary re-adjustments throughout our journey to become better. It's tough but it's how we get better, whether we relapse or not.

Continue pressing on. Continue encouraging and pay it forward. It looks like when we encourage others, we also encourage ourselves. It's all part of being in a community. We may not know each other personally and we all come from a diverse backgrounds, but we share a common goal of being PMO-free someday.

 

That's 30 days again and a testing time for me, considering what I said in post #3.

This time, a day at a time, I do feel a little differently, and thankfully I'm busier than I was before.

 

Relapsed on my 29th day, had earlier done 17 days. Not being too harsh on myself for 2 days of fapping in about 45 days, but it was a combination of alcohol, boredom and fantasizing that got me.

Had a heavy drinking weekend so decided to stay in on Sunday to recover. Had met a pretty girl at a party on Saturday, kept thinking about her. Was all alone at home all day and mad urges taking over, then one edging session went too far.

Lesson: Drink moderately and keep busy! Too many stories of hangover relapses.