I agree. I feel so much more productive without PMO-ing! Today I spent three and a half hours at the library powerhousing my work, and I only needed three short breaks. That would NOT have happened under P's influence! This is day 6 in progress for me. There is no way I am relapsing tonight (lol I'm too busy to), and I feel fantastic. I love getting these benefits after a good short run of abstaining. This is also around where I usually fail, but I REALLY feel that posting on here is helping me. I've always struggled alone, and that has made me battling with shame and fear of reprisal worse. I'm someone who craves external accountability, so having this community really helps me. I regret not participating fully sooner! I've been using NoFap for its motivational resources for over a year, probably at least a year and a half easily, but I was always too scared to join in. What if someone traced my Internet history back here? But having you people respond to my comments finally makes me feel like I am not alone :') Anyway. Day 6. Feeling' great. Hope y'all are too. Good luck, and stay strong.
Here we are at day 2of 14... I've got 9 days no PMO as I did the 7 day challenge. Very strong urges last night! Thought I was going to relapse. Remembered urges pass and stayed away from pmo, phew!
Day one-three is easy. Once I start getting to four-six that can be a problem. Especially if something bad happens. During the first three days I get a burst of energy but then it can dissipate and any little thing can send me back into the cycle. But I'm so tired of the cycle and I finally hit rock bottom. I've always known that to be truly successful in life I would need to kick the habit but I was able to function and achieve a small level of success plus my relationship was doing well so I thought I could be a functioning addict but I can't. I just can't. I must quit. The time is now. This has gotten out of control and there is no way to mix the two. I'm either going to live a happy and fulfilling life or be a porn addict. Honestly I got so bad I thought about living in a trailer park so that I would not have to earn a lot of money and could just watch porn. Just thinking like that shows how far gone I was.
Day 3 was great. Woke up early and was not thinking about porn except to acknowledge to myself that I wasn't thinking about porn. Was the first person to get to the office and was very productive until about 3:00pm. There was a lull in the day and I got the urge. This is where I would usually give in, admit to myself that I was a porn addict and that I love being a porn addict, leave work and edge as long as possible. The high that I get when I'm in that zone is stronger than cocaine but it is an illusion. It's not real. When I come down I feel ashamed and stupid. I feel so much better sober. So I fought the urge and stayed productive at work. After work I went to the park and played basketball. Usually I skip this to watch porn. After Basketball my wife told me her and so,e friends we're going to go hang out at a local bar to eat and have a few drinks. This is when I would normally tell her I was tired and just wanted to relax when the truth was I would get excited because I knew I had the house to myself and could watch porn with the sound on. But instead I decided to go with her and had a really good time. Now it's going to start getting difficult. Typically on my fourth day I might jump on the computer and say to myself "I'm just going to look real quick and see if there are any updates." This could be the start of a binge that could waste 30-50 hours in a week. Have to fight this.
My God, it's like listening to myself think! (Aside from being married, I'm still single). You've gotta stay strong, brother! We both knew this was not gonna be easy. One minute, one hour, one day at a time. We'll get through this!!
Don't do edging bro, basically it was masturbating without orgasm. However you don't need to reset the counter cause i was too late to tell you
Finally reach day 14/14! Feel happy about it. However i'm kind of worried because strong urge start coming to me, need to fight harder than usual!. It will be better for all in here to set long time objective cause for now, i feel that i was losing my objective as i beat the challenge. I just worry that someone else will fall because only having short time objective (beating the challenge, etc). Btw need to tag @2525 to tell him to put me in the hall of fame
Day 11 done. There were urges in the morning but there was no time to do anything. Long work day always helps. 3 DAYS REMAINING. DO IT.
