Having experienced it several times, I can 100% identify with this "talk of desire". Next time try my method: ignore its arguments, give it the mental middle finger, and move on.
Checking in. No idea what day I'm on. Offshore in the Persian gulf. Work stress makes me want to p. But I deleted all my p when I started and the internet is really shitty. So I'm safe.
That's given me an idea: If we all chip in a few hundred...or thousand dollars we could buy an offshore oil rig or island and call it the 'Nofap Retreat'-no internet or bikinis allowed and you could book yourself in for 90/180 days or however long it takes! Any up for it?
Hey guys, stopping by. Saying life is good, I have been involved with friends more and it had been awesome. Track stated I turned 21 on Monday. Survived my first night of bars and kicked butt on a test the next morning at 8am I'm doing good
*sigh* Yesterday I got my freebie in. Really bad day, very angry, and so looked at some porn (no M). But, I am not resetting as that was my freebie. It happens again, then I reset.
Half way through my wet dream, I semi-woke up and started helping myself finish off. I definitely count it as a relapse, even though I was only half-conscious. But no excuses, should have had a stronger will :/ Count my relapse as 1 please. Need to complete this challenge!
Day 4 Nothing much but still everything seems to be bored.Still head ache is there i i got it only, after starting NoFap
Hey guys sadly I relapsed again, so I'm out. Hope you all rock this challenge. I think I need some more preparation before trying an other 180 Challenge.
Thank you! =) I feel honoured! Good idea! (Have no money to support it, but I think it would be a great model!) Happy birthday! =) Great to hear you are doing good! Stay strong! Day 7 and more determined than ever. Had a few conversations with my girlfriend about it. I'm all set up for winning over my inner demons. All the best to you guys! YOU ARE AWESOME PEOPLE! Seriously, I am honoured to be part of this community. Cheers! /Baldur
Shit happens man. Try some of the 5 days, 10 days or 30 days challenge! Then you can work up to it! =) Stay strong, you can do it! All the best! /Baldur
Special day. I have avoided even thinking about my crush this entire week, as I am fairly certain she is not into me. Today, however, was a different matter. It had been raining pretty hard since lunchtime. At the end of the workdday, I was waiting for the elevator when I became aware of her standing behind me. She avoided eye contact and walked off in the opposite direction (there are two directions from which you can exit our building, which merge on the same path that leads to the main road) as soon as we reached ground floor. I headed out and opened my umbrella. On reaching the common path, I saw her walking towards the metro station without an umbrella. It was raining pretty hard. I instinctively ran towards her and put my umbrella over her head while greeting her. She first said "It's okay." but I persisted. She told me she had forgotten her umbrella and thanked me. She asked me where I lived and whether I also took the metro. (She has asked me the same thing twice earlier when we have walked together. As she is a smart girl, it is obviously a polite way of telling me "Dude, I don't give a damn about you to care remembering anything you said."). When we reached the metro station (the whole walk must have taken a minute) she thanked me again. I offered her my umbrella to take home (the last part nearly a stammer as I felt overwhelmed at this point). She thanked me and refused and I walked off briskly to my side of the station (we take trains from opposite ends). What's so special, and where does nofap come in? For one, I am really proud I did not act like an asshole, even while knowing this girl was not into me. I had the courage to do spontaneously what felt right to me in the moment. Maybe I would have acted the same way before nofap in this instance, but perhaps in the (irrational) hope of making this girl fall for me. Right now, I don't care if she thought I was a desperate loser or feel embarrassed that I stammered a bit towards the end. Nofap has certainly made me more comfortable with embracing my vulnerability. Most of my pre-nofap life has been an Oscar-worthy performance. I would pretend not to care when the girl I have been madly crushing on for two years was sitting right across the table. I would blank her out completely. I would pretend to be the picture of peace while people walked all over me. I would play this cool, unattached, "perfect" guy who didn't care for anyone or anything and was completely impervious to emotion. I am far from being normal now, but I believe nofap has brought me many such moments where I can act spontaneously and feel truly alive.