So, I’ve abstained from porn tp correct my PIED for 5 months, but have not reset my counter because my M’s and slip ups have been few and far between. The one time i’ve had a 100% rock hard erection was a while ago, i was laying in bed cuddling someone and was in the middle of another long streak, and that seems to suggest to me that I need to rewire to gain my full abilities back. However, part of the reason i turned to porn is my parents were practically hermits and I was always extremely socially awkward. The only people, even on dating sites, that I dont quickly fall out of favor with are obvious damaged goods that I know damn well I can’t continue to talk to. How do i help myself?
First off, if you're just abstaining from P, your counter should reflect that. If you're intending hard mode, then you should reset your counter if you M. I definitely recommend true hard mode, if you're still struggling at this point with no P and occasional M. Work on diet and exercise if you aren't already. Practice leaving your comfort zone. Start small, ask strangers for the time. Practice having "open" body language - that affects mood, hormones, etc. Hard mode should help with the social anxiety - it won't make it go completely away, but it should become manageable enough to work with, if not, consider some therapy. Good luck!
Social awkwardness is an issue for me, too. I also am abstaining from PM to correct PIED. While sleeping, I sometimes get hard but I don't even get near hard when awake. I only have 7 days distance from last PM but I still wonder if I'll ever get really hard again no matter how many days I clock.
