First time posting on here just had to get shit off my chest don’t gotta read it but right now I’m 21 I only started watching porn lightly around the age of 17 or 18 But began using heavy for the past couple of years...and I see now why my life has turned to shit...I used to be social always enjoyed going to parties sometimes party hopping 2 or 3 parties in a night lol. Never had any anxiety minus when it naturally occurs at sport completions or something but nothing crazy at all...and I was so good with girls, idk why but I just was. I had confidence out the ass that I can’t even believe it now. Never had a reason to look a porn until I went through some heavy stuff my senior year I don’t really want to elaborate on as I’m past it now. But in the past 2 years I’m managed to lose pretty much all my friends and parters nor did I want more friends or partners..there’s was no drive...and when girls did try to talk to me if I manage to get a literate sentence out there wasn’t another one after I knew something was wrong but didn’t know.. until I saw nofap..so many stories similar to mine..I’ve Been on and off porn for the past 7ish months(I don’t believe in streaks, I don’t want a number I want to be done)and I can confirm this is real as shit the first time I was off for about 2 weeks and was feeling everything that I’ve heard of From the users of nofap . Of course there have been plenty of relapsed since then but lately I’ve really been thinking;;this shit has the power to change a handsome confident athlete into what I am today. They should make porn a Class A felony because once you’re addicted you’re a prisoner in your own head. I just want to be back to my old self and better. It’s hurt me to see myself like this and I have really been trying but life finds ways to fuck me over hard. Then I say fuck it life is so bad may as well let myself have one but as everyone knows it’s never just one. I should be going to clubs or bars or just living my best life in my prime years and kills me a little every time I relapse. Every relapse is wasted days or weeks of progress. I was off 5 days then had a 5 min relapse to pictures of an instagram model while scrolling(she was the bait and I was the silly fish). Which led to another 5 min relapse the day after. But I didn’t let it get worse. Ive off for almost 4 days now and I really need advice on how to deal with urges and triggers Sorry for the medium-long post btw
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This is a good start https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/watch-this-if-youre-struggling.232140/ Good luck