Reset yesterday and the day before. Note to self: There is no "new" porn. It's always just two naked people and a camera. Day 0 complete Either I'm "flat lining" or something great has just happened and porn has become not that great anymore
DAY 12/30 - Here we go! Best strategy so far: Do not plan to have any time for "doing nothing" at end of day. Have stuff planned for yourself until you fall asleep. Last night I was super tempted to just look at some P...y'know, just to look, not touch, no M, no O BULLLLSHIIIITT that's such a trap, and I know it. So I went on YouTube and played a video of the sound of rain mixed with subliminal messages for "increased confidence with women" as I fell asleep. Hahah. Will it work? I don't know, but listening to rain to fall asleep and at least feel like I was doing something positive for myself felt like enough. I didn't need to go find some P to M and O to. I commit to you today, through the help of our mutual Higher Power, that JUST FOR TODAY, I will not engage in PMO, and I will be diligent to root out misleading thoughts and subtle habits of action which may lead me toward PMO.
Day 1/30 Well at least the updates are easier now since the days coincide with my habit tracker's streak. Suck a DICK Dostoevsky. I finally finished reading a section of The Karamazov Brothers that I found really long and difficult to read but I finally finished it! (Think a chapter of 20 pages, Size 9 typing squashed on regular-sized book page without paragraphs or spacing between vertical lines. Aka pain in the ass ) Other than today was pretty good. I got some urges again but said nope. I did my run again in a time of 11m10s which is slower than my previous but that was 2 weeks of sickness ago. I'm about to enter a patch where this'll be super easy for a week. Godspeed Gentlemen!
Shot down Day 6: When men first come into contact with a crime, they abhor it. If they remain in contact with crime for a time, they become accustomed to it, and endure it. If they remain in contact with it long enough, they finally embrace it, and become influenced by it. So does PMO.
*drops bounty fob on table* Day 2 checking in I wanted to share something with the other newcomers and recent relapsers that has really helped me. We are all different, so this may work for you or not, give it a try: Mentally I view my problem of PMO as a Monster/Beast/Animal. It usually takes form as a dragon, demon or snake. I try to visualize it before temptations arise so when they come, I make the unseen thing real to me. This makes it easier when they do come. Now.. have it in your mind? My dragon is typically dark colored, fearsome and strong... and taller than me.. Now here’s the fun part.. who controls this battle? Ha! I laugh we do! Now what? I shrink that enemy into a small insignificant harmless creature or bug so I can easily slay it. I have no remorse for this thing that is unnatural. I even overkill it! Completely burning it with fire.. The point here is to take the unseen and make it seen.. Those that conquer visualize victory. This also makes the goal reachable, as you control how tough the battle is, after all, it’s YOURs -Wolfyoufeed- over and out
Day 24 of my second 30. Thank you for everybody here. And to the creators of the 30-day challenge. I never thought that I reach this level. Someday I can help here. I am so busy now. Read or listen to nofap materials or any preferred spiritual material. Every hour of your waking day.