I tried nofap and went about 7 days but cracked and am now in bad habits. During the 7 days I did feel i saw some progress but not at the point where I felt 100% things were back to normal. However after cracking im just scared again when seeing my level of arousal to the things or thoughts that get me going now versus what I want to be aroused 100% by. Have read many articles on HOCD or confusion and am more confused and concerned about my sexuality. Help please!
I'm not sure if I can help, but I'm willing. Maybe elaborate more. I can tell you that over a shitload of years porn started changing what turned me on. transgendered person stuff became a lot of what I was looking at and started having desires. To try it. The thought of how I would feel afterwards makes me ill. I've only been away from it for a little over a week and I just don't think about it if it's not in front of my face. It almost feels like some evil agenda...
well the situation is such that over the years my porn material has grown too and really when I reached the genre of cuckolding thats when things took a turn. It was all hot and fun in the beginning but then the idea of sucking became arousing and sissy etc and thats become like the go to type of material to look at it and PMO to. It has also spilled over in real life where I havent tried anything and dont think i ever will just bc I dont want to go down that road however the erectinos to such thoughts material are way moer intense or instant than let's say being with a woman. hope that makes sense
Time to fix your day counter - it says you have 29 days. 7 days is so little - this shit takes time. You didn't get into this condition in just 7 days, did you? Then it will take more to get out of it. The fact that you got any progress in 7 days is very encouraging. No kidding - I've got the same. But it has improved, significantly. You need more time. This is super common here - stop PMOing and give it time.
Thanks guys I'm just worried because I feel I'm in the fight for my sex life and that alone scares me so hope I can stay strong.
Find a deeper reason to stop porn besides your sex life I believe once you do that it will help you I use to think I was doing this just to be able to have sex and attract women but the more I abstained I realize it’s much deeper than that porn was an escape from reality and pain from negative experiences that I didn’t know how to face but now I see the bigger picture it was one of the hugest sources of guilt holding me back from living my life let alone trying to find a girlfriend on this journey ask bigger questions and you will find deeper truths about yourself that you couldn’t while porn distracted you
You mak You make a very good point. Many things change including desire to take care of the normal routines in life. When using PMO I didn't really feel like doing anything. Much better now. That and you surely will not have to do it alone. There is great support here if you participate!
Thanks. My concern has really started since over the past couple years I started getting wroused at the thought of giving oral sex to a guy. As far as I can remember I found oral sex hot but never in the sense that I wanted to do it to a guy. So I guess I’m worried if this is just conditioning HOCD or even there is something about me I never knew. Being a virgin doesn’t help either since my erections to thoughts of women are not what they used to be where as erections to the thoughts I’m trying to leave behind are instant and intense so pretty concerned to be honest
I was thinking that too and felt sick about trust me stay away from it and those thoughts will go away getting into the transwoman genre was a big red flag for me because I knew it wasn’t really me
I hope so staying away will fix things. It's proving harder than i thoguht to fully stay away since the feeling an arousal is like intense but deep down i want to not be into that stuff
I just read Underdogs latest post and I think it's very helpful. If we don't fix the underlying problems like emotions we don't want to feel and the plethora of other problems that plague us and we escape for a bit with PMO, only to find we are xyz again and trying to escape it with PMO. It's like a dry drunk. He may not be drinking, but all his problems are there. That's what just counting days is like I think.
Nofap is a journey. It can't be completed in a matter of a few weeks or months. Expect to be at it for a long time. It is not a linear process but you do progress