Yesterday I relapsed again. I was talking with this girl for a long time. We have been doing sexting on many occasions. I have mentioned this before. I have a nice girlfriend whom I met regularly but idk why I lose my mind. This girl on Instagram text me whenever she is horny bc she can't date a guy bc she has very controlling parents. I started talking then started video chat and within a minute she removed her dress I ejaculated. I ended the chat. I was pushing my dick to be hard and erected eventually it happens. After the session, I was feeling measurable, lonely and anxious then I cried ,I cried like a teenager. I am 29 yo male and I have been believed that men don't cry. After the years of abuse of PMO, I had a great streak of 174 days but unfortunately broke my commitment. Guys, pls tell me what to do. I started again on 22nd Jan with almost no libido and erection then after a week I started feeling better but my erection is very short. Do I need to go hard mode? Am I suffering from pied? I want to marry, have kids and live like a normal individual.
You can still take things under your control. You need to work hard and soon you'll get well again. I recommend at least 60 days hard mode to you. Good luck.