Here I am, again. I relapsed, again. It's so hard to tell myself NO despite even the voice in my head saying not to skim the knife. I do it, and I get cut. One of the main problems is that the material I see updates. It's comics you see, and a new page come up once every few days. I come for the story sometimes, but of course it's more so for other reasons. It's a horrific combo for someone suffering from OCD and ADD. So my question is what would be the best things to do to get that urge away and move on? I can't leave where the source is at, and I have to work.
I feel your struggle man. I think you should consider putting the comics away for now. It's a hard choice to make, but probably a necessary one. The urges will go away (or lessen dramatically) only after you reboot successfully, and to do so you have to be in a trigger-free (as much as possible) environment. It will be much harder otherwise. Also, try to be more forgiving of yourself. It's not our fault we grew up in a society that pushed us towards developing a taste for porn. Our minds have been twisted through years of watching it. Healing takes time and patience.
