InDeepDepression

I used to be my family's most loved child, and I was so innocent and happy and I looked promising and had a beautiful future ahead of me.

Until I got into pornography, which was my biggest mistake I could've possibly done at such a young age.

Slowly but surely I started getting worse in school and started to lose my ability to focus and study well. I couldn't have possibly known that this was because of porn, and I was never going to seeing how people praised it and almost nobody spoke against it or about any of its negative effects.

And I wish my journey into porn ended with me being worse at school and losing the ability to focus, infact I'd pay with a halved age to change time and have it stop at that.

I just defiled my innocence and did unspeakable things, and for some reason I turned full psychopath/sociopath and didn't give a single damn about what I've done. I just kept going until I pretty much stripped myself by my own self from any remaining bits of innocence I might have had.

Then recently my senses came back to me and now I realised what the hell I've been doing with my life for almost a decade.

Now neither my lack of morals nor pornography can help me forgive myself for the things I've done.

I can't believe this is my life now.