I'm a girl and I'm obsessed with the idea of getting licked by someone but I've never had it before. every time these thoughts come in my head it gets hard to do I even tried to pay a friend to do it for me but he said no, I realised that it was a problem after that
I don't think you should pay for sex. Definitely not for your first time. It should be something you look back at with happiness. Ask yourself tough questions. Why did you have to come to a point to offer payment? Focus on yourself and you'll have a line of men wanting to do it for free.
Dont demean yourself by paying for sex! And a young women being aroused by the idea of this is an entirely natural reaction.