Last evening was a bit tough. Feeling lonely again, bored of everything on the internet. I ate a huge bag of peanuts and went to read in bed. Woke in the night feeling horny and having images and fantasies trying to start but I ignored them, was hard to tell what was dream and fantasy. Anyone else get really different types of dreams doing no pmo? Mine are really vivid, a lot of fighting and chasing, intense stuff. At least my dreams are interesting now! Keep up the good work everybody! 6/90
Happy sunday everyone, keep it up, 23/90, quarter of the way.... Yesterday I noticed the power of simply saying no. I have been trying to do the 90 day challenge for the pas 18 months and never gotten this far. Felt a bit restless yesterday evening. Had to search for something in a cupboard, and came across some manga with some risky content I had carefully stowed away. Immediatly I thought: "just a peek" but then I said to myself NO, closed the drawer and that was that. I felt incredibly powerful and in control at that moment. And I didn't linger in the should I/shouldn't I mindset. I think of my addiction as a wild beast that needs taming. And a wild animal needs strict, consistant rules. Just a simple no and move on. When you're about to relapse, there is always that moment, that moment where you have a choice. All you have to do in that moment is to say NO. You can make up reasons why you shouldn't relapse, thinking about the destructive nature of pmo, about the length of your streak etc etc, but this is a language too complicated for the beast. If you just train the discipline to say NO right at that moment before relapse without thinking it over, maybe that's enough.
38/5400 Less achievements in work but found a new hoppy "READING", IM LIKE BOOKS WORM NOW, lil bit confused but SURVIVING...........
you can´t do that bro. the more isolate you are, the more you´ll tend to feel miserable, punish yourself and pmo as consequence. it´s isolation that contribute to the addiction installment in the first place!! you need the opposite direction. partners, groups, forums, do as you want but stay in touch. go bro, much love
4 feeling tired and foggy today, then i do the wim hof technique and gain instant energy and awareness. try it brothers, it might help in difficult times.
I believe I will be leaving this thread in 6 days after a successful streak.There were times I would PMO and feel like I will never make even 3 days. But deep inside I knew I would overcome....84th day.
