So, there is another day passed from this new challenge, the 7th. My thoughts run, suddenly, to porn scenes, to escorts and to the so easy possibility to masturbate myself. When this happen, and is happening often, I activate some kind of command in my mind and I switch to some bad thoughts in the same area. Ex. I am thinking at the days and years lost in my life by watching porn or the risks I exposed myself to. That momment, when I make the switch is the most difficult. That is the fight. In the left corner is the urge to PMO vs, in the right corner, negative effects. Till now, the thoughts to negative effects, won. The strugle must go on!
Day 0/30 - Voluntary Reset Caught my mind wandering and ended up on some unsavoury site shortly after. Taking that one as a fail, peeking is just as bad if not worse, it’s setting yourself up to fall.
@2525 i completed the challange 30/30 days. i had the aim in this challenge to be more social, to connect with the others more and more. i can say it was difficult for me but i tried to improve myself every day. i don't see these challenges as a will strength challenge but a time to understand something about me and try to do something, to get up from the chair, from procastination. i break immediately an urge but doing something simple as going outside for a walk. i have so much things about to work on in my life. apart the relation with others also finding a girlfriend, facing my social phobia. next step is to enlarge my social context but this is a subject for the next challenge, 60 days.
