Day 55, It's getting really tuff. I promessed to make it till day 90th though. My biggest task is to start keeping promesses.
Day 2 of 90, foggy morning, writing term paper, breaking into new habits, taking control of my life Sleep could be better but I got up early instead of just lying in bed waiting on urges to pass which is really stupid-_-. Getting right up is the best course of action since you don't give your body a chance to get comfortable with the urges, movement = progress/Stagnation = more likely to fall into traps of your own desire. Have a good day
22/90 1/90 no cigarettes Something interesting happened, which feels like I relapsed. I went to a furniture store yesterday and spent 2 hours in there, getting shown around by a saleswoman. She was beautiful, and I'm assuming that she feels lonely because she has recently gone through a divorce. She showed me around and we were laughing and connecting, and it was delightful. But my guilt set in when I left because I'm married. I felt like I have emotionally connected with this other woman, to the point that it felt like we had sex. Maybe I'm just really sensitive to the movement of my heart after 3 weeks of no PM. It could also be that my wife and I have hardly seen each other because of our work schedules. I can feel a new yearning for female attention: I reached out to a female AP, I have helped a very poor thai woman that I felt bad for, and now this. Thoughts/suggestions?
You are in at the peak in your cycle of hormones through the month. That doesn't mean you're a girl, but it does mean that you need to be more strategic and diligent for the next week.
Hola grupooo, comento mi breve historia, mi primer racha duro 11 días. Estoy en mi segunda racha y voy creo 43 días ?. En fin, mis hábitos era caer en MO todos los días, así he logrado una genialidad con este foro. Estoy haciendo el desafío de la fuerza_mental el miembro coach y me sirve mucho, me ayuda bastante. Me siento bien, tengo una muy firme decisión de dejar el PMO. Y actualmente estoy en una crisis por falta de trabajo y eso me tiene mal. Estoy muy firme para llegar a los 90 días. Me pongo a pensar 90 días sin PMO no es nada para los 20 años de PMO que llevo acuestas. Quiero seguir así. Un abrazo
Day 81 Woah, long time ago since I was here again. Man in those last weeks very much happened to me. Ok so school started again... wow... just everybody annoys me xD. Fuck it I will only have a focus on me and my real friends. Since I got this long streak, I feel.. free. It`s really weird because my whole life I lived like a schedule. Everyday had a meaning to me. Now it`s like I achieved the 'free mode'. I do more things spontaneous. I have more freetime. I can relax more and better! I am more concentrated. I also improved my drawing skills and played a lot of guitar ^^ But today or the last few days, I really felt like after a relapse. I was very sad/depressed. I had or still have headache, I am really unmotivated to do sports or anything. Is this.. normal? Man life is so weird in last time...
in between the storm of depression, anxiety, overthinking, urges, demotivation it is hard to continue the journey but still, I will try not to give up...& continue this journey...day 53/90