Day 9 (Total 16) - Urges, urges and more urges! I had an erection during the meditation.. had to finish it earlier, so I got up and walked a bit. Getting rid of the erection is the easy part, but dealing with all those thoughts that my brain produce is another thing. Here are some of them: -Masturbation is soooo good! -Why I am evening doing this? -Well...I can masturbate, it doesn't matter. At least I am not watching porn. -I made it to Day 16, it is fine if I masturbate today! -This is too hard, I will masturbate today and do 90 Days of not using porn. -One masturbation doesn't mean anything, I won't binge. Here is my journey so far: I am halfway into Day 16, there is still a very high possibility to changing this Day to red color.
Ok so now I am up to day 8 of this challenge (14 days real record). I feel good and happy with myself that I have made it this far and that I am making steady progress
Be strong. All those thoughts seem rational but they are NOT! They are there for one reason: to put an end to your success and an end to a better life in the future. I'm inspired by your calendar colors. I might do the same. Thanks for sharing.
Hello! Last night I've completed day 2 but I forgot to mention it. Anyway here I am on day 3 doing great. I had a few dreams about masturbation, but guess what? I started doing it but I stopped in my dream because something told me that it was bad. So I don't have urges anymore. Thank you and let's try to finish this race with ourselves.
"Completed Day 7" - "Started Day 8" (total 52 days) Yesterday was horrible, because I got sick, and the weird thing is I don't know how I got sick. I made sure to meditate, and I didn't get much sleep, because you guessed it the urges came back, but I didn't give in, but the urges are still kinda here right now as I speak. Yesterday was hard, but that doesn't mean today has to be. I'm hoping to get a lot done today. If anyone is currently facing the urges like I am right now, please hang in there, don't give in, and remember to stay committed to this challenge, because the urges go away, they always do.
I forgot to mention that yesterday I was doing a Pilate's course with lots of beautiful girls and I was totally changed. I wasn't looking at them at all, because I have changed my point of view regarding girls.
3rd day done! Had a challenge because I got home earlier and worked on my bed. Got that itch to masturbate but tried to distract myself with work.
Day 2 and 3 over. Well, I got sick today, so I basically sat at home the whole day. Except of buying some stuff for school I didn't do much too yesterday. I really hate being sick. When I'm sick, I can't do anything. I have to stay in bed and watch how precious time passes. Even though I'm not always in the right mood to be productive, I like to and always try to be as much productive as I can. One good thing though. I didn't have any urges. See ya tomorrow.