TheLoneWolf88

I'm already at the point where the mere thought of P gives me a disgusted feeling. I hope this feeling continues

Why is it never enough to beat into my head the monster PMO has made me, both to myself as well as others?

Had a REALLY unhealthy dinner last night, and didn't cave into PMO. Junk food is an aphrodisiac to me. Baby steps

Somebody help me through this nightmare / I can't control myself / Somebody wake me from this nightmare / I can't escape this hell

When I think about all that PMO has done to me over the last 17 years, I just fall into a pit of depression

I feel I may need outside help. I'm stuck in a never-ending loop

Give up the ghost, afraid to let go / Inside what I didn't know / So tired of being alone / Anybody out there feel like me?!

Day three starts tomorrow. That's when my urges begin to flare up. Then again on day 5. It's like clockwork

Gotta push through these wintertime blues. Maybe by spring I'll be a new person

I really want to go back to my life before I first discovered P at 17. I want my mental innocence back

Life's killed me 100,000 times / You can try, you can try / But the dead don't die

I found a song that makes me cry. Apparently, I'm not dead and emotionless inside

Hopefully this streak will allow me to surpass my all time record of 30 days, which I hit 5 years ago and haven't come close since

"You know what's better than PMO? Real relationships and real sex!" --What I will be repeating to myself during hard times

I must find a way to shake these filthy thoughts from my head

Alone for Valentines Day for the 34th time straight, and oddly I feel fine

I'm done playing around. I blocked ALL of the places I can find P and any keywords that would trigger me

Strength doesn't come from what you can do. It comes from overcoming the things you once thought you couldn't

Am I this way because I'm afraid of women? Afraid of getting a 'no' answer and them being quite bitter while saying it?

After finding out yesterday that none of my coworkers celebrate Valentines Day, I should just say I don't celebrate it either