Take comfort in the fact that literally every man in this forum has relapsed at one point. Not a single one of us has successfully abstained from porn forever from the moment we made a decision to try NoFap. The relapse rate of this addiction is f***ing massive. I'd say like 95%. The important thing is to use your relapses as learning experiences. If you're serious about recovering, you can reverse-engineer your relapses, analyze what happened, and set precautions in place so you can avoid the same triggers/situations next time. I'm a big supporter of filters/blocks. If you're having trouble just getting a few days, filters go a long way toward helping you get some traction. Inevitably, someone will come in and say, "Oh, but the real problem is in your head, you can't use filters as a crutch." Whatever. All I know is that it helps to start making technology your ally instead of your enemy. You can do it. Take one day at a time, and remember that the goal is progress, not perfection.
Days 0-10 tend to be the worst I think, in terms of urges, and especially the first few, if you're dealing with a chaser. So no need to overthink this and second-guess it ad absurdum: do whatever it takes to get past the "surf" of the first few days to the open sea (deeper, still dangerous, but less frantic) that follows.
Very patient and wonderful explanation/assistance. Not (very) OCD here, but my compliments nonetheless!
thx guys! i really appreciate ur responses. but dammit guys, i think i should stop watching youtube. relapsed again today. i was just watching prank stuffs cuz i was super bored, not sexual correlated tho, but so many attractive girls that eventually triggered me and i relapsed. damn i ain't commited enough. im on my hard days, relapsed again and again and didn't even pass 4 days.
i should've practiced drums, but i was not in the mood to practice. so i just watched youtube and boom i relapsed.