this afternoon i got home from school and had an urge. i looked at some nude pictures (no videos i promise) but i stopped myself to masturbate. should i count this as a relapse? i think i should probably reset my counter. im ashamed of this really. any advice for me please. Wednesdays and mondays are my worst day always, because I have over an hour home alone. Advice please!!!
Unless you specifically defined your recovery as no videos, pictures are still P. Using them still counts.
I do think you need to look at the positives though, yes you looked at pictures, but you didnt escalate it to videos. You should figure out what stopped you looking at videos and apply it next time you get an urge
I wouldnt say its relapse. It will make your rebooting more difficult because you will have to fight with additional dopamine and less motivation. Hovewer you shouldnt do it anymore.
Thanks. I'm grateful that you could get back to me so fast. I am going to consider this a relapse just to be honest with myself. I consider this a virtue that I'd like to harness and express. I will definitely use this experience the next time I come across an urge especially on my worst days for PMOing.