So I wanted to make sure there was no p on twitter. To my suprise, I saw a bad image, but i clicked away almost immediately. Is it a relapse?
Did you seek it out? It is hard to say and everyone is different. There isn't a for sure relapse unless it is full pmo. I personally wouldn't count it as a relapse since you immediately clicked away. Ultimately, it is up to you.
I went on twitter and looked up "P(trigger)nos" and saw it. (I wanted to see if there was still p on it, so I would knowto avoid it)
Since you clicked off I would say no, but that would be how I see it. Be careful with a just to see mind set, it can take you right into a binge without realizing it.
Thanks for the reply! I felt REALLY guilty about it; The urges are really strong now ;( But i won't give in!
If you were searching for a known porn term, why did you want to know? What use was the knowledge? Was there any innocent reason, or was this uneccessary temptation? It sounds like risky behavior that isn't going to help you.
I wanted to see if p was still on there. Just so I knew to avoid it. BUT this is how my binge started last time; I got curious. Any advice? I want to COMPLETELY eliminate it from my life.
Okay. It sounds reasonable. I would assume it's always possible to see triggering material in the public forum, regardless of location. I was at a store yesterday and saw a GQ magazine (not porn) that nonetheless had a nude woman. Looked away. You should focus on what you'll do when you run into it and just assume it's everywhere. If twitter has explicit blocks, use them. In an extreme case, how much do you need twitter? Can you replace it with something safer?
Good idea man! I actually am going to stay off of social media for a while; Until I get a hold of myself. Sorry to keep pestering you, do you think this would be considered a relapse?
You're not pestering. It's fine. Only you truly know your intentions. That being said, if I had to judge it, I'd lean yes, for the following reasons: 1) You intentionally did a search for P. 2) You knew that this caused you binging in the past. 3) There are other ways you could find out, like asking someone to check for you, or googling "Does twitter have P on it?" At the end of the day, don't lie to yourself. While I'm new here, I've been struggling with ending PMO for a year. Addicts lie and make excuses. What sets the addict apart for the one who recovers is that the person in recovery admits their faults, identifies their triggers, and avoids unnecessary temptation. Don't think of this as a failure though; think of it as a lesson learned.
Yeah, I won't lie to myself; However, I will just log that went 8+ days without m and start at 0 for p. As much as I hate to, it has to be done.