no need to lie ... I did what I was not supposed to do ... not doing very good lately that makes me do ... that ... well not too much to say hopefully things get better peace out everyone one hope your mind don't play no tricks on you .. like it did to me ... Be strong!!
Nothing is lost. Be strong this time, life is all about falling and then standing up. Best of luck this time bro
Just keep trying. Maybe you are going to make it this time. Find out what triggered you, that is important, and learn from it.