Meditate, own your mind, dont be slave to your mind. This fuucking system wants to slave us in our body and mind promoting porn, masturbation, filthy habits. After 10 days going strong there is no way back. Masturbating to fake sex in monitor and ejaculating on stiff sock? Thats fuucking disgusting and beta man.
lets me know if you want a 7 minute exersize.. it's deeper then meditation. anyway. I have 87 days left now. I don't even think about the 90 days. since that's in the past. I only think about 87 days left!!!! easy. if I think about the rewards at the end of the 90 days.
Sure im open to every options, what is it? Dont think about days, focus on your life, eliminate things that drag you down, that cause relapse, after 90 days what woudl you do? Make bigger goal - LIFETIME NO FAPP NO PORN how it sounds? Clean life till death. If i relapse i can say to me that im dead.
Yes everytime i imagine myself in past doing that filthy thing im literally disgusted, how i can respect myself with thought that i can do it again? Its all about selfworth, love and respect for ourself. For example i can sometimes smoke cigarret or drink alcohol because its not disturbing me that much like porn or masturbating.
back to day one. one of these days I will get all the way to 90 days. I am really wanting o do this now. well I don't want to, the addiction is in full gear, so all the more, I need to, not want to. 90 days, no O.
I am trying again, it would be a lie to say to my self 'this time I am fully commited' I was the whole time and always will be, I am just trying again, that's all I can do. I am on day 1 . no O but my focus is, working out and water, and health food, the positive, how many days you on now?