rebooting from looking at craigs list

I quit porn three years ago now, never looked at it again, I was a heavy user to say the least. now I am ready to get to the next level, this is really hard, all I want to do it keep that mind set going, but I don't want to any more. hard hard hard. I don't do any more, massages or any thing like that. nothing. this is the last habit for me to kick.

 

this is really hard, I don't have a girl friend, so I am all on my own. I am not in the position to have a girl friend. so what do I do.

 

real connection is what I need!!!!!

 

Probably means Casual Encounters

Although he could have a thing for new/used cars/trucks. I've seen some sexy autos.

 

looking at casual encounters, I never really try to connect, I guess the language on the posts, are triggering like p videos. I think it's more about that then looking at the pictures actually.

 

I don't go to any massages any more, not even normal ones. that's just the trick..why go on the craigs list..why? is the question. I'ts disgusting really, shallower end of things... I don't know.

 

Have you tried going to actual dating sites? If you're genuinely interested in having a relationship with real connections then I would go that route.

 

I am worried about online dating, I used to be addicted to it, never even met any one on it. maybe this is an extension of that. I would rather not go to any more dating sites, brings back to many triggers. so it's hard.

 

Hmm. Maybe look for events for singles in your area? Usually there will be places which will do speed dating and other singles events.

 

quite true. it gives me a high I like. I like hooking up in my head, but not in the real world. wonder why I like doing it in my head. soon as I leave my house, I forget about cl, and that stuff.

 

yes, that's an idea. I bet there is in my area, I will look into it, I would feel safer that way.

 

actually I am not even wanting to date right now. just getting my life in order.

 

well I don't even feel like it today .

day 1 again of no O,

 

yesterday..but not today. I got to do 90 days of no O! to get all p subs out of mind out of sight.

 

doing better then yesterday.

 

day 1 Is always hard hard hard