Saying "No" to women, because of PIED.

A little overview on what I am going through: https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/90-day-reboot-hopefully-i-can-do-it-this-time.76791/

I am 29 years old and I self-diagnose myself with PIED. I would say ever since I lost my virginity at 18, I had some type of form of performance anxiety, because I was able to stay hard as a rock while watching porn and then when the real things comes along, staying erect was mildly difficult. However, now at age 29. I can barely achieve an erection and its even more difficult to sustain the boner. I've been pretty fortunate that some women find me attractive, so getting laid has never been the issue, but the anxiety of knowing my cock will not erect or sustain erection is killing me. The funny part is, I feel I give some women the worse dick of their life, because it happens to be in gummy worm mode (soft) and I just end up wiggling it inside them, but they call the next day for more.

In the beginning, I felt it was mostly performance anxiety, however now I am pretty sure its a combination of porn and anxiety. I have been watching porn for about 18 years, so the damage is pretty severe I think, coupled with the fact my taste in porn has gotten pretty disgusting. I am hoping a 90 day no porn or masturbation will be a good start.

Also, I feel like I gained some type of death grip. I haven't been able to cum from sex in like 4 years. I kind of chalk that up to death grip and my porn habits being so hardcore now, that im disinterested in "normal" sex.

I have taken "generic" viagro and it does get me hard, so I kind of feel like it is all porn induced ed, because even with Viagro I have problems sustaining my erection. If anyone else is going through similar issues, I'd be happy to share my experience and hopefully encourage each other from continuing this path, because I am tired of making up BS excuses to women. It kills me inside, they literally throw themselves at me and beg. I feel so low now.

 

No flatline. I get aroused, depending on the situation, however I get anxiety, which immediately kills my erection. When a girl sees that, they auto think I dont find them attractive and if they're not a significant other, I wont tell them about my issue, Ill just use the excuse i drank too much or whatever.

 

I think the anxiety kills me at first, but I know I have some brain damage from porn. Once and awhile I'll have a good day with a girl and my dick will get hard. They see that and its auto sex time, but say like 2 mins later poof, hard on goes away and when it goes limp. It goes limp forever, ugh. Id say once a build an emotional attachment, it helps. I have good day here and there where I preform like a champ. But those days are rare and becoming more of rarity. It doesn't help I still watch porn in relationship or even when I have girls to sleep with.

 

If I have to be honest with myself I think its watching years of porn as a child and my cock not matching up to the pornstars. I'm not small when erect, the issue is not matching up, but then once that fear is gone, because I never once had a female turn me away, even when my cock is soft they'll give it there all to get it hard, but once I think about omg she is going all out on my dick, but why am I not getting hard, It'll never get hard again. Then it turns into, wow I'm 29, im in great shape, I'm attractive, I have a woman basically raping me and I can't get hard. The nervousness breaks in and when I see her again I'm just nervous as before, but this time its, I wont get hard.

I don't have anxiety in all situations, I might get nervous meeting new people, but thats only if they're important people, say in a business meeting. Id say on a social anxiety side, im at 2-3 out of 10, 10 being crippling fear.

 

I have 100mg of fake viagro. I take half, I've taken 25 mg before and I'll get hard. Hard out of nowhere within 30-45mins, which shocks the shit out me sometimes. I taken it during the day, just to see with no stimulation and poof erect dick, which sadly makes me super happy, because I'm so relieved that my member can stay erect. Now, when it comes to taking a viagro and sustaining, I have trouble. I have in the past stayed hard throughout, which happens here and there, but its rare, even in a serious relationship. Id say 10% of the time, the other 90% it gets erect, then soft and then erect then soft. With a girl I have less emotion for its like 1% chance. the porn I watch has become more disgusting too, so I know that is killing me