WOA, seriously, I need help with this ... I did relapse some days ago, but I'm back on track. This seems similiar to the chaser considering the time. I'm having MASSIVE urges/cravings, interestingly not to PMO, but to DO SOMETHING, but at the same time I can't concentrate on anything due to these cravings inside me. (Also had a coffee relapse, so I'm hyper as well) Did someone had a similar situation ? Especially cravings, but not to PMO ?
Yep it happens during the rebooting process. Just shut them down immediately as soon as they appear in your brain, it might be hard, but use your willpower and determination.
Hmm, that's the problem, it's not as usual "in the brain", no compulsion to look at P or even having a PMO session. It's more like I could to go on rampage and demolish stuff as well. I'm usually not that crazy. Something like this never happened before Moodswings weren't that extreme before. I'll try to go out, hopefully it gets better ...
I am craving food like crazy, and not necessarily good food, but fatty foods like cheese and coldcuts. I eat very healthy, and I am fit, I eat a lot of food and good food; but then late at night, I get these cravings. I let it slide a bit, better food than PMO, but now I need to address it somehow.
Learn to deal with them That's the challenge . . . I've gained a few lbs and... now I need to address it.
Haha, "Learn to deal with them." That's what I did by going out / watching a movie. But there should be better methods ...
Maybe your brain is noticing the void left in the habit department. Maybe you should take on a new habit. For me i had a "high" when i went to gym.
That's true. The last months I started watching more tv series, then caught myself binge watching for 2-3 hours, and decided to stop that. Same again with some videogames I wanted to play in the last years but didn't had the time. Now I work out / go running 2-3 times a week. That's indeed much better, and my body really starts to transform. I really like that and can only warmly recommend this to everyone.
And here it goes again ... So I'm over the usual chaser in days 2-4, then these urges began again from day 7, about days 9 to 11 were really evil. Today I really learned what it can mean, what icanrockmylife wrote here At least today (d12) in the morning I managed to meditate the urges away, but that was a crazy balancing act: Had to stop thoughts/phantasies about 10 times to continue with meditation and that drained a lot of willpower. But I saw that in the end, IT IS MY decision not to relapse. At least the meditation helped for about 2 hours. And I know now more details about these cravings. Seems they shifted again or I'm more aware of them: * I don't feel compelled to look at any sort of P/pics (at least not in an urge form, sometimes more out of curiosity, but not that often). * It feels like a lot of "tension building up" during the streak. So it's indeed craving some form of release. During last relapses solely (M)&O was sufficient and worked in short term (except for the chaser). For some days it's ok until this "tension" builds up again. So ... what does that mean ... ? Am I somehow further in the journey ? What to do now, besides dealing with the situation and continuing ? I'd say, the first point is progress, but I don't know how to assess the second one. I'm not italian, but pasta is awesome. There were times when I ate it also everyday, now I'm more moderate, and eat it regularty every 2-3 days ... And btw, pasta is also an awesome form of energy. About 1-2h later is the perfect time for a workout
There will be a few days of brain fog where your mind will be racing in circles but you can't concentrate on anything. It usually happens during the first week or 2 of the reboot. That may be the tension that you notice.