Hi! Just relapsed, so right now I'm on the bottom. I've installed all the blockers I could find, and now I realize that I really have to beat this crap addiction. The goal is 30 days, and the reason I post it here is because I believe it will motivate me even more.. Updates will follow each day, with focus on which emotions I feel through the process. See ya!
I really started two days ago. I have a feeling I might get urges soon but I have been fighting the thought. I will DESTROY this ADDICTION.
Day 2, today was a very busy day for me, just got at the house now and I just need bath and sleep on my fav songs. No urge whatsoever at this point. @Deadpool2095 what you gon to avoid them urges to gain strength?
Being in college, its hard not to fantasize because literally every girl walks around in yoga pants, short shorts and what not and you cant avoid looking. Even if you are not you still see it in your peripherals. I just constantly remind me that I have the strength to do this and I wont let anything stop me from achieving my goal. I had the best sleep in awhile last night, it was amazing and it might have to do with not watching p or m before bed which is what i used to do. Me keep coming on on here also helps a lot when I talk to you guys. I feel like im at home and I have something to go to when I get the urges. I haven't used it yet but I have the NF emergency app aswell.
Agreed man, it excites me as well when I see that count of yours ticking up, we in this together and yay I do not anything that just throws me back to zero than this addiction. Noticed something of a cycle lately. I'm most of the time indoors, so for me its pictures and stories my eyes passes through, and I get curious and slowly and slowly I need more than I need. So if I get curious about something and stop myself from those endless searches could actually save me a great deal. Now my question to myself when I start those searches is, "Is this search something I can ask my friend, if not I stop before the urges build up. Its often hard to fight when the urges are strong.
I'm with you as well. I've struggled too long and too hard with this addiction and its destroyed my self confidence. Hoping to rebuild one day at a time.
You know @FreeSlave its easy for you to get a counter if you want one, just click on my counter and it takes you to a website to create one and all you do is post the link it gives you in your signature and another victory for me today. I've noticed that ive been getting a lot better sleep lately. It feels nice. If you are in to computer games you can try and play those to stop your endless search haha. I play a lot of video games on my computer
Had some urges last night because I was high and slightly drunk but I fought them and ultimately tossed my phone to the ground and went to bed. Feel proud that I woke up today not giving in last night.
I admire your courage man, was on day 3 And stuffed it up. So I'm back on day 1 again. Still keen to fight once more.
Coming up on one week! Feeling excited. @FreeSlave I know you can do it man. Just focus on getting to a week! and then two weeks..etc. thats what im doing. Taking it one week at a time. I also just started taking cold showers today and oh my goodness it was good and painful at the same time. Felt exhilarating. Has a lot of health benefits too.