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Back to 0, absolutely ruined my progress- Reset after 25 days...Peeking is always the downfall for me, a never ending downwards spial, setting me back to withdrawals which are so unpleasant and barely endurable since there is no break from them.
It's mostly strong headtaches on the left side of my brain and the feeling of dettachment/derealazition from reality when I leave my flat and have to deal with Life, can anyone here relate? And if so how do you deal with it?

I live mostly in solitude, which I'm aware of is making the reboot much harder, however, I'm trying to be active, have routines, eat healthy and blocked as much things as possible, but until enough time has passed- based on my experience about 2 1/2- 3 weeks clean hardmore, I simply can not persue life as I like to...SometimesI just wish the Internet wasn't plagued with erotic content, it's absolutely everywhere.

 

Well said, I really need to work on this myself. I left early from work to catch an amazon delivery. Normally they just leave the parcel by the door or with a neighbour, but this time I though I wanted to get the parcel myself. Missed it by 5 minutes and they decided they'll try again another day. Annoyed me so much. But then again, it's something I could have avoided have I left a little earlier.

 

I completely agree, porn and sex is almost everywhere, like sugar basically.

I find myself guilty of peeking (women I see on the street, at the shopping or even people living across the street) and only reading your post I realized peeking triggers withdrawal symptoms. No need to get graphical about it, but I really struggle with this. Sometimes I find it difficult to get it in my mind that these are people, human beings.
Once I took it that far that I took the phone out to take a picture of the cleavage of a mom who was just two meters away from me. And this was in front of my daughter's nursery. She was busy with her little child, but I think she realized what I was doing. I was / am so ashamed of myself.

Anyway, what to do? Get busy? When I get into this state I step away from my computer and go running, or do some work around the house. There's always something to do. Just don't relapse. Stop staring and girls and women, they are just people.

 

Day 175. Not in a good place right now. Still being a prisoner of my impulses, not using my time to my full potential.
Being lured into withdrawal symptoms by my lack of planing my time. Failing to plan is planning to fail.
I need to get organized a bit.

 

Day 3 saiyans

Will do some calisthenics training today. Im kinda pissed off so Im gonna go hard, ill let you all know how it goes.
Keep going saiyans, always fight

 

10 days!

 

I know how to configure and download an Porn Blocker on my phone. But I keep deleting the app, when I have my urges.
I relapsed today again after 5 days.
I feel hopeless inside. I will try to set a goal to 7 days now without relapsing.
May God help me on this journey.

DAY 0

 

You only really notice it once you try to get rid of the claws.
I realized that the combination of content available everywhere and living in solitude, while trying to reboot, is probaly the worst combination I can think of, heck
I'm even thinking about going for a rehab or visitting a closter for some time....

Intresting, I notice women's beauty and sometimes it leads to arousal, but it never really triggers the same pathways in my brain as any kind of erotic content online. I guess everyone here has their history, but the fact we are all acknowledging PMO as addiction that we have to fight- and get rid of, is what is throwing is into the same boat.

I think that should humble us, like we are not evil beings, but victims of a multi- billion dollar industry which is using our strongest biological desire to keep us hooked with super stimulus our brain has no natural protection against and nobody but we can do something about it since neither the media, nor politics or the society as whole is viewing it as massive issue that concerns the health of the current and upcoming generations.
It's basically David against Goliath.

 

Day 025

 

Day 0
I lost again.. I think I'm demotivating you...

 

Back to Old School Routine....

 

Checking in.
@JB39 thanks, yes tolerance frustration is very important.
I was once also stupid and took a video of a girl to show my friends.
She realized and left. I felt so ashamed of myself. It took months to forgive myself.
But I learned, I haven't done something stupid like that since nor do I intend to in the future.

@Baki Hanma keep going brother.
We support you both in the good and the bad times.

 

Day 4 saiyans

Trained hard yesterday and im feeling it today. Did a ton of pull ups and leg ups. Going to train even harder today. Keep going saiyans.
Fight or die!

 

Day 30

 

Failed again late at night.
I was having trouble solving a problem. I resisted for some time but gave in eventually.
Things is when I calmed down from the stress I solved the thing I was stuck on in 5 mins.
This is actually a legit problem outside of PMO.
If I can't control my stress levels I will not do well in the interview.
I have to control my thoughts better.
I should give more credit to myself and calm down. I know I can solve problems I just need some peace and some time.

 

Rise again brother! You did it before, you can do it again!

 

Day 177. Going good, focusing on work around the house. Keeping up my new program of working out everyday.
Started some gym clases to add more diversity.

Stay strong everyone, one day at a time!

 

Day 026