Day 4 complete! I hope I didn't scare anyone by making such a gloomy post and then disappearing for a few days. I've been on an evangelization trip and I didn't have the time or a convenient way to check the forums. Those three days were a great way to kickstart my new streak, though, and I've continued that today even though there were several temptations to peek. I'm back home visiting my family for a few days, and I have had many falls under this roof. Time to begin the work of balancing that out with some good days! St. Monica, pray for us!
13 days Can't complain. I mean, I am probably heavily triggered but I don't know how to remove the trigger. I usually just endure it for several days or weeks and eventually relapse when the urges get too strong.
End of day 3 I am back. I care for myself again more than this challenge seems a burden. I don't want to associate my sexual desire with the screen and I also feel that porn has a huge influence on my relationship with my wife. I did not feel the later before my latest fall and never felt it in the entire period of our relationship. I hope this will be enough of motivation to not leave this group until I've long defeated this addiction.
I guess you need to work with your mind to make those triggers not trigger you. It's a long process of choosing what you think. But I am not a pro here either
6 days - With rain and fog you enter the old village of Bree. Still in Bree... but the danger is not far away. Strong forces lurk in the fog so better not stray too far from the town.
Day 19 no PM - stay strong fellowship. each day we are clean we are a little bit stronger, wiser and better equipped to deal with what comes next. The battle never stops
I hear you man. You can’t let what’s happened in the past decide what happens now, you almost sound defeated already like a relapse is inevitable. Try to step outside your thoughts, and realise that the trigger is just a thought, but it is not ‘you’ and ‘you’ are in control. I too am triggered and fighting 20-30 triggers every day from people I see, adverts/TV - so I am having this internal conversation with myself constantly. Try to stay positive brother
Porn will be robbing you of full relationships with everyone in your life as it will be pulling at your attention, dominating your desires, and affecting how you can focus and enjoy what’s real. You are right it will be affecting your relationship with your wife and how you view all women. I personally am fighting my subconscious view that all women are a potential conquest, and an object of lust. This is warped thinking I try to beat, caused by over exposure to porn, built up over decades. I am going to practice practice practice thinking differently, and change my perceptions….and so will you
Day 17 I almost slipped on one of my P email messages. Managed to look away on my peripheral. Wow I hate that sometimes. It happened more than once in this journey. I made it and there were other things as well I will say later if I remember. I want to say to others thing about certain people for advice but I will save it for later once my streak is up to a certain degree. @Baki Hanma As he said earlier about a question to ARCEUS, I would say I am a night person. Meaning at night time when no one is around, for some reason I feel more focused. But for some others, it is dangerous area because there is plenty of time to PMO. For me, it depends but not really because I am thinking of other things. I feel I can study/work at night time better especially at home. It's quiet and I can do what I need to do as far as reading and other things goes. So I guess there are few Elfs rank over here. No ones keeps up with the ranks I here I guess. Like it matters because I am keeping myself accountable while others are here as well. One Elf rank has recently fallen @ARCEUS sorry for the recent relapse bro. I am still plugging away and doing whatever I can every day. Gym soon or later. Reading of course around certain sections here in the forums and such. Congrats on starting your food business! Nope it didn't scare me. Just pity from my end. Good to hear you took time off to take that advantage. Stay strong because I'm also struggling a bit here as well. On the journey with the Fellowship to Mount Doom. Keep on going Fellowship!
I am a morning person but I study from 10am to 3am. But there's reason why I study this much. If there is 100 ton pressure in my head due to my pending tasks right now, its 99.9ton created by me by making decision to leave local coaching class for acquiring needed content quality for JEE. Plan is successful but pending syllabus due to that coaching is very much, and many more
Day 4: A brave friend, Tom Bombadil, takes notice of your quest. He teaches you a rhyme to summon him if you fall into danger within his borders. Less busy today. Work, school, and I'm having a party tonight. Normally I'd drink 2-3 times a week (binge) and since alcohol had such negative effects on me (anxiety, bad sleep, less productive, etc.), I began to drink much less. Now I drink maybe once in two weeks. For me drinking has become a social occasion, and drinking less has made me feel much better.
Day 14 no PMO. Back home after a 12 hour flight yesterday. That was a tough day which might make being back “in the real world” even tougher. I’ll do my best to keep my head up today. Good luck to everyone.
Day 4 A brave friend, Tom Bombadil, takes notice of your quest. He teaches you a rhyme to summon him if you fall into danger within his borders. Nothing like music to get going this adventure!
Checking in Fellowship Friends! 93 Days Free of PMO. I'm feeling calm still, which is really a nice change of pace. I'm tackling more stressful situations at work and managing quite well. I'm still skeptical though, as I know that PAWs type withdrawal can appear suddenly and last a few days, but for now I'm enjoying myself. I'm improving my overall organization. Regarding urges, well, the last 2 days in the morning I had some "real life" flashbacks with an inkling of "erotic" tendency but nothing that I would cave into. A few chores for today, rest , meditation and work. Stay Strong! @CALM IN SUFFERING Welcome back brother!
Oh...I'm sorry, I don't know you are preparing for JEE exam. I haven't faced JEE exam But I Know It is the hardest exam than others. If you know brother or sister or anyone who got some high marks in JEE , you can get some advices from them. Because their advices are better than ours.