Day 0/30 I had urges all day this morning. I just couldn't take it any more. It felt like there was a deep pressure that I couldn't get rid of no matter what I tried. Thankfully, this MO was not porn induced. It was just my mind playing tricks on me. Welp, here I go again. As of 1700 UST, 0 days down, 30 to go.
Day 20 completed (50 in my current streak). It is good progress that there was no P in this relapse. You are moving forward and your progress isn't lost. You can only go further and only get better. Strength to you! I believe you can do this.
Day 1 Congratulation on your day 50! 1 vs 50, just funny, I'm imagining a superman is fighting with 50 giants. Do you have some advices for the superman to win?
Day 2 joining in on the challenge! Man how i want to make it again (succeeded two months ago but relapsed). Wish me luck!
Day 21/30 Today when i had no work sitting empty feeling booring at that time strong urges are coming but now i am feeling good because i did not relapse as i remenbered my purpose why i started this challenge that time and after sometime my urges are gone but the fight between me and my urges today is a bit difficult i hope i will complete this challenge succesfully after 9 more days and i will start another challenge of 60 days
It's time to change tactics. Throughout this past month, I have failed over and over again. Short of chastising myself, I have done everything to keep from PMO-ing. So far, I can escape relapsing through porn, but I can't shake MO-ing. As of now, I think it would be a good idea to switch tactics and focus on weaning myself off of MO-ing before I resume this challenge. Ciao for now.
Day 22/30 Can't sleep properly last night because urges are coming back again and again but fortunately i survived it
Day 21 completed (51 in my current streak). Thanks a lot! And for the superman to win, he must realize that the giants he is fighting are within, and that it's not easy to escape/fight what is within -- it takes a strong sense of purpose to fight his own self and his own patterns. So this battle is like no other. And the key is to accept that the fight won't start with a clear sense of purpose at all, it will only get refined and stronger as you fall and get back up over and over again -- its an essential part of this battle. Once he accepts this, no fall will break him, no giants will scare him -- he knows that its all within and that the falls will only make him get back up with a stronger resolve. He will then know that he must keep going, no matter what -- and that attitude, my friend, is what winning means. Its not a destination, but a journey. Best to you in this journey!
Good luck! One day at a time : ) Its inspiring to see you fight and not give in to the strong urges. Keep the fight going! U got this! Congrats on one week! My prayers to you. Your progress is not lost with a relapse. Maybe some self introspection can help get the weight off the chest. You can get back up and fight. You can do this!
Day 2 Wow, you really surprise me, lessons from an imaginative film scenario. Thank you a lot for your time and your so smart answer. Today our superman had double power, like 2 supermans vs 51 giants. The film is more fascinating.
@bettermeeveryday Congratulations for scoring a half century! Verily a humungous achievement. If possible you may share how it has changed your life. It will help you grow spiritually as well. While relapse is inevitable it is important to strive for progress and not perfection!
Day 22 completed (52 in my current streak). Thank you for your kind words. And you see, when you started, the giants were 50 times more in strength (1 vs 50). But as we go further and say you hit 100, the giants will be 150 by then, that is, only 1.5 times more in strength. As you go further, you become stronger and will be as strong as the giants. Some day, you will be much stronger than the giants and much greater than the person you started as -- you won't need any numbers to measure that. Best to you in this journey! Thanks a lot! The biggest change I see now is in the way I deal with some of the most dreadful triggers -- earlier, I would be driven into panic and would desperately look for a mental escape, which was PMO mostly, and I would be in that devastating cycle for days; whereas now, I sit down and try to accept my situation, my anxiety, I breathe, distract with healthy activities (that I am now becoming better at -- ain't that a bonus?), I have more time (and willingness) to self introspect, talk to friends and gain new perspectives, be back in action again. I get back up quicker these days, every time I fall. It feels more alive, I realize the nature of life more and more, no misery or happiness lasts forever, you just gotta be grateful for both and sail through -- grateful for the miseries as they always teach you something new, grateful for happiness because ain't it sweet?! And I don't think I would ever wanna do PMO to escape again, I don't need to, because I found a better way. Nevertheless, I will be realistically hopeful and say, even if I ever fall into PMO again, I will get back up and learn the what and why, build a stronger resolve and strategy and a better understanding of myself, and fight on to only go further. May your journey bring strength to you!
Day 3 Thank you, giant. So I call this journey one more name: go with giant to be giant and giant together. You saw double of me yesterday. Today, look behind your back, one more of me are fighting with you!
Starting today my 30 day challenge towards a great life. I hope i don't break the streak anytime soon.