Dawn of the 23rd day. Throughout Sunday evening and Monday I binged an anime. It was a 25 episode series so there was 9-10 hours of content. Doing this is harmful to my health as I was only getting 4-ish hours sleep a night. I can tell I was impaired through the day. Logically I know a lack of sleep will diminish my awareness when performing a tasks like driving. When I'm in the moment of the binge I think very little of the consequences. Driving a car is a dangerous task and I could kill someone (or myself) if I'm not careful. For a bit of irony, the medication effect of the binge would have been used to cope with life stresses such this.
today is Day 2 for me - no early checkin today and no late checkin yesterday because the girl was visiting me and we talked and cuddled the whole night. No Sex but Im all good with that. 1-2 times I was rly horny but I didnt let it win. Pure things dont need to rush. Updated my counters as well. the month scores will increase Have a great time.
4 days Low urges yesterday, worked almost all day. Without social networks this process is always less difficult. Today I worked out and took a cold shower. Keep strong my brothers.
no no, maybe she has a point. Do you feel you´re not giving her the proper attention and time? that can surely hurt a relationship. And if so, what can you do to combine the two areas (work hard and give her the right attention) ? If you do your part, you´ll be at a better position to point out the things that you don´t like in her behaviour, and by your example and words, she can motivate herself to change her own behaviour. I hope this helps
"He keeps a watchful eye over the vast forest lands to the East, and a good thing too. For always evil will look to find a foothold in this world."
Checking in brave Warriors What can i say, the morning started poorly with the usual fatigue, anxiety and leg pain. but as the day went by, my mood is becoming better, but still with low energy. this is pure withdrawal, but what i can tell is that this withdrawal has been way more bereable than previous ones. why? first of all, at night my usual hobby is books. i go outside to the balcony and just read throught the night, it´s great . That way i don´t blow up my dopamine watching TV all night. second, the wim hof breathing and cold showers really help to reduce the withdrawal effects. i still feel them, sure, but they´re less intense as before. also heavely reducing sugar and alcohol helps a lot. now, one might think, does the level of memorized pain from past withdrawals reduces the frequency of relapses/binges? yes, for a minor part it does. but for the large chunk of it, it doesn´t. Only a good defined strategy will keep us sober, and only a good defined strategy will prevent us from binging after a relapse. That´s why sometimes i keep getting back to this video. watch this if you haven´t already, it´s really enlightening. well, these are just my 2 cents. Thanks for reading me brothers . Have a great day!
55 days You reached Amon Hen, a hill above the western banks of the Anduin. By royal decree, you´re a Warrior of Gondor now! Had a great day, went for a swim in the sea in the morning, after work went to do calisthenic workout. Also took cold shower twice today.
All was very good but when it came to sleeping not in your normal bed it takes time to get used to it plus all the flies and mosquitoes were quite annoying ,especially in the evenings.But beautiful views and nice clean air filled with all the natures sounds quite compensated for perceived inconveniences .
Day 21 check in. Days PMO-free in 2022: 207 out of 215. Major wet dream hangover this morning, so I'm plowing into work to stay occupied.
Day 215 A long lie in and then travelled to London in the afternoon to visit the city I’m so fond of. Looking forward to spending a few days sightseeing, maybe even taking up some photography again. Urges aren’t the problem at the moment, but intrusive thoughts are. All of a sudden I’m finding out that people are interested in me and if I’m being completely honest I don’t particularly enjoy being on the radar - people are encouraging me to date one person or the other, but I’m still figuring things out.
Day 3 Check In Before bed and upon waking feeling a bit sexually aroused. Thoughts about women I like and such. Small urges I feel coming when waking up. Now I feel the feeling. Temptation before and upon waking. PMO orcs are coming at me lol. Now I feeling it again because it wasn't that much urges until as of now. No I don't have strong urges because I am older now. Btw, I haven't mentioned something important besides saying so in my first challenge I started this journey. Although I'm early on here this challenge, I have been on Semen Retention/NoFap aka SR/NoFap for 12 days now. Because of the rules I had to start over. I.e. viewing P*rn. For the most part unintentionally seeing it. I will explain more about this later and in the process of this. I am still retaining though!!
Day 7 complete! It's always nice to reach the milestone of one week. It's nothing more than a milestone, though. The road goes ever on and on. Only a few days left on my summer assignment, and then a week with my family before returning to seminary. I am looking forward to being back in a place where I can take serious cold showers; I can't get the water here to go as cold as I would like. St. Bridget of Sweden, pray for us!