As we got a job in focus I have some good quotes to share in chronological order: ,but pmo-free lifestyle is not the job but the requirement to be able to love your job.
I'm glad for your victory, our warrior! You need to be extra careful for at least a week! Do not talk with the enemy! When you start hearing, you start loosing.
Checking in. Past night i had a wet dream, i couldn't stop this one... But i understand that wet dreams are a part of the healing process. Other than that i'm going easy with everything else, this week has been me surfing through the waves of time and not doing too much of productive stuff. This week i had a major decline in motivation and discipline, i don't know why, maybe it is because of the reboot? I feel that my discipline and motivation are slowly but surely climbing back to the top of the hill, i've started monday awful, tuesday a lil' better, wednesday was ok, thursday i saw some improve and i'm excited for friday. And to this day i've accumulated 110 hours of study this month. Strenght & Honor!
Day 175 Practicing primal scream therapy, my throat hurts a little even tho I tried to scream from my diaphragm. Didn't had much effect this time, first time was better even tho I did it for just a few seconds. Was about to watch Arcane on Netflix (I was addicted to LoL) so it was a bad idea, it was just a bad shot of dopamine. I watched the tv series of the human body instead, this made me feel really grateful to God, for making our incredible bodies, they really are a gift.
Day 27 First full day back at college and it’s been such a privilege to spend time with my friends and peers. Was made aware of two horrible situations that some of my friends are going through which really took the wind out of my sails, but despite that I trust that God has them in His hands and they will get through it. Saw some unhelpful content on Instagram reels, felt my mind almost stepping on to that particular train of thought that leads to relapse, but I have this underlying feeling that this is the streak where I beat my PB and hopefully this addiction in its entirety. Instagram is pretty much softcore-P these days, even just by clicking on a cooking video the eventual scrolling can lead to some dark places - stay strong brothers and sisters!
Day 10: closer to beginning the journey. I must confess that the whole week I have had mental fog, sleepiness, full procrastination, etc all the symptoms of PMO without it. But today I felt a lot better, also I got obsessed and cleaned the house while I was working. The floor looks a lot better now. I have felt somewhat depressed the whole week, maybe because I am confined, maybe because well I cut my dopamine preferred source. Have a great day everyone and have a good trip.
Checking in. Still feeling the effects of my pmo failure last Friday. Practicing my triggers avoidance plan and keeping tech out of reach when tired.
Thank you! But I wrote this just as an example. It's what I could remember of what I said that night. I think it will be more effective if you do it with your own words! Reject the devil, be a true ally and son of God!
Day 6 complete! The battle was very present to me today. I'm barely getting six hours of sleep per night: it's enough to function, but not enough to make me feel healthy or capable. Definitely felt some brain fog today, and strong urges during the evening after dinner. The strategy I employed to counter them is probably not something that works long-term, but it rode on the back of my depleted mental state, so I think it was effective for tonight. I called it "the lockdown." Urges are not something we can control, but to act on them requires thought. I decided that I would maintain just enough thought to do my homework, and lock down my brain from thinking about anything else. Minimal brainpower, minimal relapse opportunity. Yeah, it's dumb, but it got me through tonight. @JEBF I've seen a few guys here talking about primal scream therapy. What is it? St. Joseph of Cupertino, pray for us!
Day 45 complete. Second day alone at home, no major urges or thoughts, but some as always. Doing good.
7 Lingering sadness had a wet dream Reading: Practice of Brahmacharya by Swami Sivananda (No sexual Thoughts/Fantasy/ Voluntary Self Arousal/ Viewing any Triggering content)
Check in day 11. Had a couple of urges during the evening but could resist and could sleep because of an exhausting day of work. I look back to this day and count it as successful. I managed to stay focused during work and I learned a lot of new things. Soon I gonna arrive the mark of 15 days and I am gonna start my journey again as a hobbit. I am glad to then start my journey to destroy the ring. Greeting J
Day 5 Today I slept in quite a lot… I’m not sure what possessed me, but I just decided it was okay to shut my alarm off and go back to bed. I sort of regret that now, but I also think it’s the nature of a streak when you get into that bubble around the one week mark. At least I feel that is a difficult segment for me and others seem to echo that sentiment. I finished the book and the first Hex conference video, but outside of that I don’t have much to report. I did have a bath and shave, but that is a trigger for me and I told myself I wouldn’t do that… I am getting careless. I had best not. I did do a workout. I know I said I’d do it 5 times a week, but I am now aiming for more like 3 more intense ones for now.