Day 22. I'm spending a lot of time with my family. It is very nice to connect with my peers and be relaxed after a full year of work. Merry Christmas!
checking in, doing well. I wish to everyone you all the strengrh you need to finish this year without further relapses.
Missed my check in yesterday, fortunately I had no problems! However today was particularly hard, I did have a momentary craving but eventually I chose the more beneficial option and worked out. Progress has always been difficult to gauge when doing streaks, but days like this prove to me that something I'm doing is indeed working! Day 4 complete. Onward to day 5!
Yeah... Well the whole holidays thing didn't work out because I already relapsed. Got caught off guard when a girl on my snapchat posted a nude randomly. Like... what the hell. It didn't get me that day, but it was burned into my mind for some reason and got me the next day. I don't even think she's that hot, I think it was just the idea of it being someone I know maybe? After all nothing stimulates me anymore... There's not much novelty left to find anywhere I dare to go. I gotta just focus...
Day 307 no PMO. Christmas was great but I did get emotionally derailed by some family drama. I overate but no desire to PMO so that’s good. Hope you all had an amazing Christmas.
If you tend to relapse in those days, be extra careful! It will get easier each time you win! I'll pray for you! Stay strong.
don´t think like that brother, the "if´s" are no part of life. the "are" are part of life! Instead of thinking what you lost, think what you gained, because those relapses surely teached you lot´s of valuable things, so treasure that. That´s what matters, that´s how you gain experience, that´s how you improve
Congratulations my brother!! Your new rank is the best gift on this Christmas . Now for wrath and ruin, let´s go destroy that thing
Checking in Fellowship!!! Good to see you all, alive and sound . So far, just one slip accounted among the Fellowship, so congratulations, we are improving allright Well, for me Christmas went allright. lot´s of partying and fun with the family. but i basically broke all the consumption standards that i abided to . on friday night i overate and overdrink. on saturday i did hold myself better on the drinking department, but slipped on the sweets. Overall, being moderate around big celebrations is still something that i need to improve. On the good side i kept sacred my "don´t touch eletronic devices while feeling drunk or stuffed" rule, so that was a win for me . Sorry for not checking in yesterday, but i was stuffed and in a totally chaotic lifestyle . needless to say that all my self-care habits were down the drain: workout, cold shower, meditation... i didn´t engage in something risky, that´s right, but i did destroyed myself in other ways, so that was not a good deal. i need to improve on keeping my good habits running, even amongst celebrations. anyway, first round was won. now let´s go the second round, New Years Celebration . but all in due time. it´s Christmas season Fellowship, and always a good time to rewatch the movies eheheh https://time.com/5919982/lord-of-the-rings-christmas-movies/ Have a great day brotherhood!!! Checking out
Checking in day 43.Felt low in the morning but now feel better. Cut short watching of few movies because of the silly content. It's astonishing how the producers put in nude contents in most movies produced and expecting to play on people's low instincts-inclinations. We can probably find Gluttony, Laziness, Greed, Lust , Pride , Wrath and Envy embedded and often glorified in nearly each and every one of them. Gluttony disguised as strengthening body to the max and pleasure to die for, Laziness disguised as having good time and being creative, Greed is being disguised as being prudent in saving for the rainy day and gaining status-the more the better, Lust is disguised as ultimate pleasure and commendable experience to seek and live out, Pride is disguised as being successful and worshiped by peers, Wrath is disguised as just revenge with interest and a way to keep status quo or advance, and Envy is disguised as a healthy example to follow those in success and money out of our own lack and fear...If we while watching them role play in our minds all these states we are doomed to act in the same way when we end up in the similar or same situations without realizing why we are doing what we are doing. And the funniest thing is that we are getting brainwashed -programmed with silly behavioral patterns whilst feeling desire for more of the same stuff, out of our ignorance and unwillingness to accept the real impact watching movies has on us. Brothers, if you want long streaks - stop watching movies. Is it that hard?