Yeah, the deeper you dive in the dark world of porn, the harder it becomes to get back up. So the real challenge is to never take a single step towards anything that is related to porn even in the most distant way which is really a hard thing.
Its your subconscious mind.If it could speak it would be like “okay trying to make him go straight to porn didnt work then I gotta start innocently and then build up the urges”.I experienced this myself back when i relapsed a lot the key here is to not look at anything.Good luck on next streak man.
Day 8 still pushing hard.Last couple of days were weird.Like 3 days ago I had like very strong depression and today i feel great idk why.Almost feeling good as when I first got the “superpowers” maybe it will continue to get even better over time if thats the case I am very happy.
Checking in Day 9- This is by far my easiest streak. Now when the urges come I just 'observe' them and let go. Also, because 90% of my relapses occur from 10 pm onwards, I made the decision to stop using my devices at 10pm and head to sleep. I also have a relapse prevention plan that has both active and passive elements that I review daily. In addition, renewed my zeal to study toxic shame which is at the root of my addiction. Root out toxic shame and my addiction dies a natural death. My last relapse took a major toll on me. I relapsed on my birthday on November 9th and the subsequent day on 10th. There and then I decided that I am not going to live my 36th year with this addiction. I wrote down a vow that I am not going to PMO ever again and that is that. F**K PMO!
Day 9 Im on the second phase of nofap benefit Boy my confidence level is sky rocket, woman is not fear me again, like i dont have that sex predator aura anymore, i can talk to em like a normal person I wish i can say that porn is stupid i never watch porn again , fuck this shit etc etc but deep inside i knew that in order to keep this benefit i must work hard again especially in flat line phase which ussually come after this benefit phase
Thanks! I appreciate the encouragement! I also laud you for your excellent effort in being pmo free for so long! It encourages me that it is possible to beat pmo.
Final day checking in Congrats for the opposing team for temporary winning the war, hope u loose next time tho lol xd Count me in the next war,