Day 25 of 30 (No sexual Thoughts/Fantasy/ Voluntary Self Arousal/ Viewing any Triggering content) There's just few pursuits that matter, and anything and everything that's not relevant shouldn't occupy my mind in form of thoughts and feelings. In fact, feelings must be completely eradicated. Feelings are nothing more but an inferior form of pleasure.
Day 26 of 30 (No sexual Thoughts/Fantasy/ Voluntary Self Arousal/ Viewing any Triggering content) I must stay vigilant! Today's Diwali and if I don't stay close to my purpose, if I go about drinking with people, if I stray from my path I'll end up relapsing for sure. My sentiments are ubstable too, I'm not at my best. Arrogance is another big concern which will doom me to certain relapse if I don't stay committed. I muat stay extremely vigilant
Day: 0 Yesterday I was rubbing my penis with a finger while looking at pretty girls, it wasn’t up to a point of orgasm, but I feel like I should reset my counter. This act was absolutely unnecessary. But my main goal is not to reach some number of days without masturbation, but to change myself and I feel that those 37 days changed me . And anyway I don’t grieve this fail, I rejoice the 37 days. I will continue strong.
Watch out this week, most probably you'll relapse. I suggest you set a short term target of a week, or even better less than a week, immediately where you won't watch triggering content, touch yourself, fantasize, etc. Despite that, I'll say you're probably going to relapse very soon.
Thank you for your warning. I understand that once you relapse It feels like you lost all the progress and you can do whatever you want now because it doesn't mean anything. But this time it's not like that. I feel like I didn't fail much because I didn't orgasm. So from the moment I relapsed, I continued the same challenge with a high spirit. P.S. I even have support from my friend. Don't worry about me.