Fail I will have the tittle of Nazgul until i reach the last streak. By other way, here i found an interesting reflexion
Day 30 guys. I like struggling now, I accepted the pain what it is: Part of the life, it makes us grow.
Day 2 There's a limited time event on FF14 so I've been grinding that whenever I have free time. There were a handful of visual triggers that caught me by surprise today but none of them gave me an urge that I couldn't handle on my own.
Day 0: Nazgûl (You were once a man, a great King, now fallen to the power of PMO) Indeed the cycle completes again as I have been giving into binging. I'll don the cloak of the Nazgûl for only one more day and cast it off. I was planning to take a more extended break, but I know in my heart that is just an excuse. I have been sent back until my task is done. I come back to you now, at the turn of the tide. Let's destroy this PMO ring fellowship!
Day 7 complete! It's been a long time, but I'm very happy to be back at a place where I seem consistently able to hit seven days. I'll pray that these graces from Heaven continue. Another thing that helped me get over an urge tonight was the module on Reframing, from Purity is Possible. Free online psychological tools for combatting addiction, definitely worth y'all's time. Congratulations on getting the job! Making the effort to remove unhealthy things from your past, and starting over fresh in a very literal way, is awesome. You've had a little taste of success and freedom already. Please don't ever give up! The world needs what you can give it. Blessed Father Michael McGivney, pray for us!
Yes it is interesting and most probably helpful to think about what the roots are to your addiction, i.e. what caused it from the beginning. However, once you have an addiction, the biochemistry in the brain has changed and suddenly the addiction is a separate problem in its own that we need to focus on, regardless the roots that made it grow from the beginning. For instance, some people start to use drugs because they are depressed, so the root of their addiction is their depression. But they can cure their depression and still be left with their addiction, so just getting rid of the roots of the problem don't always help.
Checking in. I think I'm feeling some withdrawal after the latest relapse (that included some binging) because I feel quite unmotivated to do stuff. I said no to hanging out with friends yesterday, and I have several things planned today which I usually look forward to but today I'm not. It's temporary though, if I stay away from PMO a few weeks, I will hopefully start to see some motivation and energy come back.
Doing nofap without motivation to get best results I never had motivation in life to do anything, I simply did things I wanted or it was my duty to do. Motivation for me is like carrying an extra weight on my head. Nofap is no exception, I did it because it's what I felt and knew it was the right thing to do. I didn't overthink it with motivation, motivation fades, it's neurotic and a fantasy. You don't need to be chasing clouds life is in front of your eyes. Motivation makes chasing a dream a burden instead of a fun challenge. Conclusion: just do it. No motivation and no hope.