Checking in Fellowship. Another dreadful withdrawal day. Yesterday i survived, but today it´s even worst, super fatigue and brain fog is hitting me hard. started around 12:00, and still goes on, oh well on the good side, social anxiety is still low, although i don´t feel any mood to socialize the more i experience this up and down path, and watch yours, the more it ressembles to the Journey of the One ring. Man, Frodo and Sam got to go throught a lot of shit until they destroy the ring. what a difficult journey, both physically and mentally. Just like us. This is hard my brothers, but it´s worth it. In the end we will prevail.
Almost breaking. Shitty day with no sleep, and now we are in a hotel with really bad wifi and we are kind of fighting because of this. I don't even want to fap. I know myself enough to know that I just want to watch porn to distract myself. I hate it This is the worst day I've had in this streak
Sounds crappy, sorry to hear about it. But if you can get through this day, just think about what else you can get through without PMO.
Checking in. Had some problem with anger/frustration today. My morning started with me getting a fine of about the equivalent of 200 USD because I had the wrong type of ticket on the subway (public transport), which is a ridiculous amount of money for such a thing. I got frustrated because it was an honest mistake, I thought I was supposed to get that particular type of ticket and I acted in good faith but the lady ticket controller would not give me a break. Instead of expressing my feelings or letting them go, I suppressed my anger/frustration about the situation, so I have been walking around a bit tense today, which is not good.
70 days You reached Amon Hen, a hill above the western banks of the Anduin. By royal decree, you´re a Warrior of Gondor now! Such an honor to be a Warrior ! Keep going bros
Day 28 I completed an application I'd been dreading. Onan 1, Avoidance 0. A good day so far. Today I have taken a cold shower, meditated, and done some informal prayer off and on. I got up at my preferred time of 6:30 am, too. I still have a couple more tasks to do, including a workout tonight.
Day 5 Another chill day. My therapist had a power cut today so we've moved the session to tomorrow, I've also got my first accountability group session tomorrow too so I'm looking forward to meeting everyone and seeing how that goes. I spent a lot of time playing games with friends today so I didn't have time to watch Squid Game again today. I had a couple of urges today I think mostly caused by triggers that I've seen before popping back up in my head as well as my addiction's voice being generally quite loud today.
If it is necesary to left youtube to get off of the influence of the pm , i will , many years with this , it is enough!
Checking in for day 43 Got back from my travel. Hurt my foot in the first day and couldn't do half of the things that I planned to do, but still I'm glad for the trip, I relaxed and enjoyed spending a good time with family and friends. I checked in one day during the travel, and I metioned that I was having some stronger urges, but I thinks its passed and I'm back to the normal day-to-day ones. I've been also pretty impressed with myself. Honestly, I would never think that could reach this streak after so many short ones. I was expecting a slow and progressive improvement. Because of that, I've been feeling confident enough to start fighting another addictions: coffee (which I've been fighting already) and sugar (that I'll start soon). @bob200 Hope I get through this without falling bro! Try going for a walk in a park and do some breathworks when you get those feelings back, it might remind you that life's much bigger than our problems. I do this when I'm in the middle of a storm like this of yours. @EpsilonDelta Man, I get these anger problems a lot and I they usually turn into triggers when I don't release them. Tearing cardboard apart or doing some sprinting running are things that help me to relieve those feelings.
Day 82. I suppose I've done everything I intended to do today, so that's good. Was slow to get going though. Not a lot to say about today really.
Thanks for the advice, bro! I think most of us need to be careful with anger and other extreme emotions, since they can trigger a relapse.