Day 7 4am I went to sleep thinking, we’re in no matter what territory here. And I’m up. Yep. I’ve made nuts sleep sacrifices before when medications made me sleep 13 hours a day. I’m seeing if I can fit five Minutes of art in the evening so after work isn’t just eat and sleep. A crazy wisdom guru can help you change for the Better sometimes crazy wisdom is the best when colloquial Fails hungry I think I better get up and eat before I wash and journal
Day 8 4am Climbing Slowly Around others higher than me I feel a surge to press onward just at a safe pace
Day 9 620~ am Sleeping in with My friend the Joker I can try to measure How hyperaroused I am before bed Do I need hypnosis? So I did both hypnosis yesterday ~1hr That was fine and I like it. Tried some affirmations again but they overstimulated me. I’m trying out just reading the suggested list once a day and see how my sleep and day goes.
545am Gonna try an old trick I learned to sleep 8 hours and feel well rested. Lately I’ve been wanting nine but idk if I can get to bed by seven.
I broke my sleep streak today I almost had 6 wet dreams in a couple of days. I am not feeling well. I’ll try again once I get to 90.
Day 1 4am 4am you don't have to get up Just lay here Morning hypnosis laundry 615pm arrive home one hour and ten minutes before it's time to evening hypnosis Eat, wash, meditate In bed for sleep by 8pm Alright, so it's doable. I just have to deal with the fact that I'll have 1 hour ten minutes after I get home from work on in office days to like decompress. I'll try to prepare food in the morning so I have something to eat when I get home as even getting takeout is like taking too much time. I guess unless I get food from whole foods hot bar but you know that's expensive. Maybe fit in a couple pages of brahmacharya before bed
Too many wet dreams bro, try some lucid dreaming to control it. Stephen laberge exploring the world of lucid dreaming Good book about it Some tips https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/techniques-to-avoid-wet-dreams.310653/
Thanks I'll check that out at the moment I am handling this chaser caused by it. I just need to get past that 90 so that one of the psychological barrier is gone. After that I'll regain my confidence and start making myself better again.
It's just a number, the number has nothing to do with your recovery. Your mind can be 100% 2 days after a relapse or messed up at day 600. Even the opposite happens as I've seen. When you reach an "important" streak number you put your guard down and relapse because the goal has been reached so there's nothing to fight for. It's a mindset not a goal or beating a challenge, challenges are fun, but they mean nothing in your recovery, forget that neurosis. Just relax and flow.
Day 2 4am staying spiritual when tempted this is my best option acting like I’ve got it together people don’t get ticked off at me I wake up and think about sleeping more but 7.5 hours is plenty just brush teeth by 650 could use an exercise mat to Do hypnosis on
Day 4 ~7am? I’m hairy they say semen retention does that sure I had three wet dreams In two months better than Five time a week like the two months prior I’m in a dream a girl sits across from me I’m looking at a book on the table between us Brahmacharya I can only do this or tha Not this or that we just sit and talk This dreams about how reading Brahmacharya each day is helping me set boundaries with what I’m okay and not okay with doing or thinking. I watched MHA and bubble girl and thought this is it. This is all I can do with her. So I’m doing 7.5 hours and 4am wake up on weekdays. 10.5 hours 7am wake up saturdays. Im hoping to get better at sleeping and I won’t feel like the walking dead when I am going through the week as much. im amazed at how I’m hungry every few hours since I started lifting weights. I was unable to walk or do a push up in April due to injuries. Physical therapy. started calisthenics in June. Lost 9lbs and increased on my exercises some. Now adding weights last month and back up four pounds while maintain leanness Taking it slow is tough but it’s ok. I have so much more peace of mind when I’m only going at a slow rate. Versus slightly enraged with the intensity to improve. The flame that burns brightest goes out the fastest The smallest flame can extinguish itself a medium flame has the best chance to survive
Thanks for the reminder @modern milarepa I really needed to read that the other day. I understand it's still one day at a time I just need to get better than yesterday and not think much of the days and counting down to a milestone since as you said a relapse is same be it comes on day 2 or day 600. And about my recovery I still feel my brains hasn't recovered properly so I'll just stick to this keep going and just focusing on me rather than thinking about any filth and stay relaxed throughout.