Day 20- a Hobbit on the move. I'm exhausted today. Long car trip last night, plus insomnia once I got back to my place. I slept maybe 20 min. Terrible. However, there is a silver lining here: a year ago, hell, even three months ago, insomnia meant PMO. Last night, I didn't even struggle with the temptation. I'll give thanks to God for that rather than to my own will, since I know I'm still very much an addict in recovery. Still, it's a little victory that feels good.
Day 4 Today was a pretty nice day. I went out for a walk, I haven't gone out for my usual walk for the past few days because it's been raining constantly, but today there was an opening so I went out for like an hour which I've really been needing because I've been slacking on my Anki (Japanese flashcards) too - because I'm still feeling unwell - so I had like 250 cards to review today whilst I was out. I didn't work out today again because I've still been feeling a little unwell so I've been pretty low energy throughout the day in general. But after today I'm feeling a bit better so hopefully I'll try to get back into it tomorrow. I can't recall any notable urges from today, feeling good about this one
Day 26! I've finnally done it, the pressure I put on myself has been dispersed by actually engaging in what I had to do! Let's gooo!
Day 35! Woke up with some slight urges by the morning, but it's nothing to worry about. I got some anxiety feelings these weekend, probably because of withdrawl effects. I tottaly dived into negative emotions and felt overwhelmed. Righ now I'm fine, but I'm going to intentionally relax a bit more in the next days. I'm also reducing my caffeine intake. I was drinking about 10 cups of coffee a day, now I'm only with one by the morning and one of black tea after lunch. Maybe my anxiety feeling has something to be with it also... Anyways... good luck to us all! Let's keep on marching towards mount doom!
9 days urges are back. Probably because gf is sick and I miss her good mood. And probably because I'm at the 10-day-peak.
This is yesterdays report. Very busy day, from start to finish. I’m trying a new thing this week, namely waking up at 5 am in order to fit in physical exercise before going to work. Hope I will be able to stick to that on the workdays, I really love my sleep Spoiler: Daily tasks 1. Physical exercise. (Done) 2. Meditation. (Done) 3. Studying about reboot.
Yes, I don't want to blow this streak. Urges are coming back, but I've held on this long... Yes, this irl fishing thing is hard to stop. I've never done the classic porn fishing, but the rl stuff is impossible to avoid really.